Darkness
Last year and this year are not going to be good for me. I lost everything important in my life, including Arashi. I am not saying I don't respect their decision. I understand them very well. But this time, I lost everything. The most precious person in my life, my family, I gradually hate people and life. I hate them since long time ago. Like Ohno, the only thing I want to find in this life is myself and freedom. But what should I do if I even lost my ownself?
This life is monochrome since before. But now, it is dark. I am trying to walk in the darkness, trying to find even a slighest light in the distance. We are not eternal, but God is. Even arashi is not. Even myself.