You'll change your mind come Monday...and turn your back on me
Umm...yeah.
So, I dunno. I slept in today. I was absolutely wonderful. I have almost forgotten what it was like to be able to sleep until I feel like and have nothing of importance to do. I love it. But I know not to get used to it because the craziness starts up once again come tomorrow. Totally lame.
I feel like I'm kind of in a slump right now. In a few different ways and I kind of feel like I have no where to turn. I mean, I'm failing my first class ever in my life. Not only that, but it's one I have to have for my major. I'm technically not supposed to be able to do higher level courses until I pass this, even though I am. But still, it's the idea of it. I feel like there isn't enough for me to do to fix it. Studying isn't helping. Taking my time on the papers isn't working. Taking my time on the quizzes isn't helping. I'm trying and it doesn't even show and I think that's what's bothering most about this all...it just looks like I've done nothing what-so-ever and that's not the case.
And then there are other aspects of my life thatI'm just confused about. I finally think I have things figured out and then BAM! (yes,just like that) I always question myself. Some things will never change I guess. Oh well.
I need to lose weight. I get sick looking at myself in the mirror. And I know what some of you will say to that, and honestly, I mean, if you lost a lot of weight and then in just a few months gained it back, it's rather depressing. And then try having people actually TELL you you've gain your weight back, like your mother for example. Yeah. I need to comfortable in my skin and I'm not. And I HATE HATE HATE when my tiny ass roommates start bitching about how fat they are and I would kill to look like them and consider that fat. I love them but it's just, I don't know, not insulting, but I mean, I don't want to hear that, because then what does that mean I am?
BLAH...need to get out of these moods. And fast.
Ok, Leigh is back, so I'm gonna go and yeah...cheer up. HA!
<3Nicole
So, I dunno. I slept in today. I was absolutely wonderful. I have almost forgotten what it was like to be able to sleep until I feel like and have nothing of importance to do. I love it. But I know not to get used to it because the craziness starts up once again come tomorrow. Totally lame.
I feel like I'm kind of in a slump right now. In a few different ways and I kind of feel like I have no where to turn. I mean, I'm failing my first class ever in my life. Not only that, but it's one I have to have for my major. I'm technically not supposed to be able to do higher level courses until I pass this, even though I am. But still, it's the idea of it. I feel like there isn't enough for me to do to fix it. Studying isn't helping. Taking my time on the papers isn't working. Taking my time on the quizzes isn't helping. I'm trying and it doesn't even show and I think that's what's bothering most about this all...it just looks like I've done nothing what-so-ever and that's not the case.
And then there are other aspects of my life thatI'm just confused about. I finally think I have things figured out and then BAM! (yes,just like that) I always question myself. Some things will never change I guess. Oh well.
I need to lose weight. I get sick looking at myself in the mirror. And I know what some of you will say to that, and honestly, I mean, if you lost a lot of weight and then in just a few months gained it back, it's rather depressing. And then try having people actually TELL you you've gain your weight back, like your mother for example. Yeah. I need to comfortable in my skin and I'm not. And I HATE HATE HATE when my tiny ass roommates start bitching about how fat they are and I would kill to look like them and consider that fat. I love them but it's just, I don't know, not insulting, but I mean, I don't want to hear that, because then what does that mean I am?
BLAH...need to get out of these moods. And fast.
Ok, Leigh is back, so I'm gonna go and yeah...cheer up. HA!
<3Nicole