My life 8
My life
Hay all i know its been a really long time since ive been on here and its just been a hard
time at the moment having a split personality is not easy they say ones bad and ones good
yer sometimes thats true but in my case it changes sometimes im the bad one or sometimes
im the good one it depends whats going on in my life in the last few weeks ive lost a special
mate who died the other coz she just needed time alone to say i was upset was not even close
i was pretty sure with all the shit going on that them 2 things was killing me but when you
have an understanding gf and a bestmate it helps you through it but jus wen you tink life gets
better someting fucks up which gives u mor shit home life is hard my life is like one big
secret scared every day incase i slip bout who i really am scared dat since my bro has found
out bout my gf his bein a cunt blackmailing me then wen i go work i get shit coz everyone
tinks they can do a better job but wot everyone has realized i really dt give a shit any
mor every smile laughter its a front to ppl its my way of not lettin dem no that my life
is hard wen my gf makes me smile or laugh now dats real coz she can make it feel like dat
not everyting in my life is shit sometimes i cry my self to sleep tinkin off my mate who
died wishin it was someone else who does not value her life like my mate did she was wot 20
still had so much to show dis world and she was pulled out of it to soon i always ask my
self y i never saved her messages she sent me maybe its da thought dat id never lose her
but its worse wen u wake up one mornin n shes no longer in dis world wid u but lookin down
on me watchin my tears knowin they are for her knowin dat it kills me not eva gettin a
message from her again not avin her cheer me up on a bad day left wid words that she wanted
me to remember everyday of my life and i feel that she knows i do sometimes i feel punished
by thos words like its a curse coz they have left me wid questions and i know that my
questions will never be answered my gay tells me to try and forget sometimes i do but then
it creeps up on me n i break down and cry sometimes i feel stupid showin emotions to me
its a sign of weakness plus da mor i feel weak da more my other personality wans to come
out but i dt let her coz shes to soft a walk over and thats is not what im gonna let
happen some say i might be a bitch but wot i do is only to protect her and me my life
is my enermy well thats how it feels sometimes.
thanks for readin xxx
Hay all i know its been a really long time since ive been on here and its just been a hard
time at the moment having a split personality is not easy they say ones bad and ones good
yer sometimes thats true but in my case it changes sometimes im the bad one or sometimes
im the good one it depends whats going on in my life in the last few weeks ive lost a special
mate who died the other coz she just needed time alone to say i was upset was not even close
i was pretty sure with all the shit going on that them 2 things was killing me but when you
have an understanding gf and a bestmate it helps you through it but jus wen you tink life gets
better someting fucks up which gives u mor shit home life is hard my life is like one big
secret scared every day incase i slip bout who i really am scared dat since my bro has found
out bout my gf his bein a cunt blackmailing me then wen i go work i get shit coz everyone
tinks they can do a better job but wot everyone has realized i really dt give a shit any
mor every smile laughter its a front to ppl its my way of not lettin dem no that my life
is hard wen my gf makes me smile or laugh now dats real coz she can make it feel like dat
not everyting in my life is shit sometimes i cry my self to sleep tinkin off my mate who
died wishin it was someone else who does not value her life like my mate did she was wot 20
still had so much to show dis world and she was pulled out of it to soon i always ask my
self y i never saved her messages she sent me maybe its da thought dat id never lose her
but its worse wen u wake up one mornin n shes no longer in dis world wid u but lookin down
on me watchin my tears knowin they are for her knowin dat it kills me not eva gettin a
message from her again not avin her cheer me up on a bad day left wid words that she wanted
me to remember everyday of my life and i feel that she knows i do sometimes i feel punished
by thos words like its a curse coz they have left me wid questions and i know that my
questions will never be answered my gay tells me to try and forget sometimes i do but then
it creeps up on me n i break down and cry sometimes i feel stupid showin emotions to me
its a sign of weakness plus da mor i feel weak da more my other personality wans to come
out but i dt let her coz shes to soft a walk over and thats is not what im gonna let
happen some say i might be a bitch but wot i do is only to protect her and me my life
is my enermy well thats how it feels sometimes.
thanks for readin xxx