6 months..................day 2
today has still been hard to deal with. i think the problem i'm facing is the time frame given for my dad's death. i think if i was told that the cancer was going to be fatal, but no time frame was given, i would deal with it better. hearing the six months to a year end of things makes me feel like any day that i walk out of my house may be the last time i see my dad alive. i guess this is technically true anyday, as anytime i leave the house may be the last time i see my dad alive, but it never had seemed in my face like it does now.
my brothers and grandmother found out today, and my grandma seemed more at peace with it than expected. i'm sure she'll have her own time to cry and pray, but for now, she gave a strong front. my brother didn't say much, but i guess he's dealing with this in his own way. none of my dad's sons are very open with our emotions (except anger-as we all have kind of a short fuse) but this is definitely going to test us all.
all in all, today was easier to get through, but i know everything will work out for the best.
my brothers and grandmother found out today, and my grandma seemed more at peace with it than expected. i'm sure she'll have her own time to cry and pray, but for now, she gave a strong front. my brother didn't say much, but i guess he's dealing with this in his own way. none of my dad's sons are very open with our emotions (except anger-as we all have kind of a short fuse) but this is definitely going to test us all.
all in all, today was easier to get through, but i know everything will work out for the best.