a brief look at the polarization of my family
my mom hates traci because she took away her eldest son, is a total spoiled brat, and has open contempt for her faith.
my mom hates tali because she didnt marry randy.
my mom hates rina because she likes traci more.
rina hates my mom because she always loved angst, and is now able to side with traci against her.
traci hates my mom because shes controlling, is no longer practicing catholocism, and is the same person as traci.
tali hates my mom because she treats randy better than she treats her, my mothers own flesh and blood.
bart hates rina because thats the way its always been, and he is annoyed at her friendship with traci.
rina hates bart because he gets in the way of her friendship with traci.
my dad hates traci because she told him he was going to hell for being lutheran, and he knew she was going to press my moms buttons.
traci hates my dad because he is lutheran, and therefore the spawn of satan.
my mom hates bart because he married traci.
tali hates traci because shes a controlling wench with her "this is my house" crap
traci hates me because not only am i lutheran, but i defend my faith. it embarasses her to be beaten by someone she seems to think her inferior, in terms of intellect, faith, and age, coupled with the fact that she now realized how screwed she is for grad school.
my dad and bart are both trying to work things between their respective spouces so our family doesnt kill itself.
traci hates bart because hes trying to keep the family together, not siding with her.
my mom hates my dad because hes trying to keep the family together, not siding with her.
my dad hates my mom because shes a stubborn wench and refuses to admit any wrongdoing.
meanwhile, nobody besides traci is really mad at me because i sit in the corner and either read or nerd (thats right...its a verb now...eat it...) and im pissed at everyone for not leaving me out of it. im sick of being my dads outlet for complaint about everything. im sick of being my moms only child when i have 3 siblings. im sick of having to defend tali to my mom. im sick of having to defend randy to my dad. im just so sick of all this bullshit. i cant get away; memorial day still haunts me. it came up in fondy today, and it came up again at dinner, leaving tali in tears. even randy will talk to me like im his little brother on the occasion that we happen to meet in conversation.
basically, the memorial day fiasco, abbridged:
tali screwed up really bad.
randy screwed up really bad.
mom sides against tali.
dad sides against randy.
nobody leaves me out of it.
while im at it, the Christmas fiaso, abbridged:
mom and traci fight over risk.
everyone gets pissed at each other.
nobody leaves me out of it.
this is what i have to say: leave me out of this. its not that i dont care about you, or that i dont want to be a part of this family...quite the opposite...i love you all; dont make me choose loyalties. ill just leave. i can always get a job flipping burgers at mack's, or move to new york to drive a cab, or move to seattle and sell coffee. i have enough connections to scrape a living, even if im dirt poor. i have a library card; my leisure is taken care of. i will be a bum on the street wiping your windows before you force me to choose between the ones i love.
also: no tec for micah. that doesnt make me happy; even if it is merely a shadow of what it once was, it still means alot to me...tec is part of who i am...
plus: got to see katie and tina today. w/y/h. sometimes, all your doubts vanish in the fleeting moment of a hug. yay for hugs!
in addition: nothing says wisconsin like custard in january....mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...amaretto...
to close: this was long. i honestly couldnt care less. for the first time on such a lengthy entry, i feel no pity for those who have read it. i needed to get this off my chest, and in this case, i actually posted about something that matters. i think thats a first.
my mom hates tali because she didnt marry randy.
my mom hates rina because she likes traci more.
rina hates my mom because she always loved angst, and is now able to side with traci against her.
traci hates my mom because shes controlling, is no longer practicing catholocism, and is the same person as traci.
tali hates my mom because she treats randy better than she treats her, my mothers own flesh and blood.
bart hates rina because thats the way its always been, and he is annoyed at her friendship with traci.
rina hates bart because he gets in the way of her friendship with traci.
my dad hates traci because she told him he was going to hell for being lutheran, and he knew she was going to press my moms buttons.
traci hates my dad because he is lutheran, and therefore the spawn of satan.
my mom hates bart because he married traci.
tali hates traci because shes a controlling wench with her "this is my house" crap
traci hates me because not only am i lutheran, but i defend my faith. it embarasses her to be beaten by someone she seems to think her inferior, in terms of intellect, faith, and age, coupled with the fact that she now realized how screwed she is for grad school.
my dad and bart are both trying to work things between their respective spouces so our family doesnt kill itself.
traci hates bart because hes trying to keep the family together, not siding with her.
my mom hates my dad because hes trying to keep the family together, not siding with her.
my dad hates my mom because shes a stubborn wench and refuses to admit any wrongdoing.
meanwhile, nobody besides traci is really mad at me because i sit in the corner and either read or nerd (thats right...its a verb now...eat it...) and im pissed at everyone for not leaving me out of it. im sick of being my dads outlet for complaint about everything. im sick of being my moms only child when i have 3 siblings. im sick of having to defend tali to my mom. im sick of having to defend randy to my dad. im just so sick of all this bullshit. i cant get away; memorial day still haunts me. it came up in fondy today, and it came up again at dinner, leaving tali in tears. even randy will talk to me like im his little brother on the occasion that we happen to meet in conversation.
basically, the memorial day fiasco, abbridged:
tali screwed up really bad.
randy screwed up really bad.
mom sides against tali.
dad sides against randy.
nobody leaves me out of it.
while im at it, the Christmas fiaso, abbridged:
mom and traci fight over risk.
everyone gets pissed at each other.
nobody leaves me out of it.
this is what i have to say: leave me out of this. its not that i dont care about you, or that i dont want to be a part of this family...quite the opposite...i love you all; dont make me choose loyalties. ill just leave. i can always get a job flipping burgers at mack's, or move to new york to drive a cab, or move to seattle and sell coffee. i have enough connections to scrape a living, even if im dirt poor. i have a library card; my leisure is taken care of. i will be a bum on the street wiping your windows before you force me to choose between the ones i love.
also: no tec for micah. that doesnt make me happy; even if it is merely a shadow of what it once was, it still means alot to me...tec is part of who i am...
plus: got to see katie and tina today. w/y/h. sometimes, all your doubts vanish in the fleeting moment of a hug. yay for hugs!
in addition: nothing says wisconsin like custard in january....mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...amaretto...
to close: this was long. i honestly couldnt care less. for the first time on such a lengthy entry, i feel no pity for those who have read it. i needed to get this off my chest, and in this case, i actually posted about something that matters. i think thats a first.