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.so he is once again with a girlfriend. I believe it's the same girl. Ugh I never stood a chance. I'm just like crying and trying to type this. I damn. I was hoping he'd like to give us a shot. I mean like all the shit we been through . It makes me wanna go back to Jon. But then again Jon is unstable. He does drugs. He cheats. I suffer. Except this Kyle thong. It actually hurts more than what Jon did. I guess it might be that I've always like Kyle more. Whatever tho. I've lost everything. It's what I do. Lost my dad. Lost my room. Lost my guy. Lost ny pets. Lost my car. Lost my dream. Lost my friends. What do I have left? I got a job. Great that's what's gonna get me my happiness. Sigh =(. I moved out and he made no effort for me to stay. I'm so stupid!!!! Why do I have feelings for this guy. Geez. I can't believe I told him I would stay for him. I thought he liked me. But he never asked me back out. "oh if ur looking for love it's closer than you think"....give me a break buddy. All the little things...like leaving a rose at my door with a note that said " am I good enough for you to love me too"...yes.yes u were. U always were. The question is...am I?... Obviously not=(
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