Hmm...
Drunk and depressed. Been drinking for the last 4 hours on a wednesday night. Something tells me that's not the greatest sign.
I'm not even sure what i'm depressed about. Everything? Nothing? Something?
I'm unhappy about how things have been with Kayla ever since our fight a couple weeks ago. I'm basically stuck going through the same thing I did with Jenny when she ignored me for Bj and David. Not only does she seem to not notice she's doing it, but she either doesn't notice it's depressing the fuck out of me or she just doesn't care. She barely bothers to talk to me or even say bye or goodnight anymore. While she's right and she doesn't HAVE to say goodnight, when you go from actually caring about someone and talking a lot to you barely saying anything and just leaving without so much as a word, it tends to hurt a bit. Everything's changed in mere weeks, and after having to go through it with Jenny, I just can't take it again.
I'm also pissed at myself because I hung out with Joe this last weekend, and his girlfriend had a friend hanging out too. So basically I wound up spending most of the night talking with her and had a good time and thought she was really cute and felt an attraction, but didn't make a move. The ONLY thing stopping me was that she had a boyfriend, but even then, I still wanted to. I feel like a bit of a douche for that in the first place, but both her and Joe mentioned during the night that things between her and the boyfriend weren't going well, and she seemed interested in me, so I really think I had a decent chance at something for once and missed it, boyfriend or no, so I'm kinda hating myself over that right now.
I'm broke, alone, and feeling pretty worthless right now. But hey, at least I have more alcohol, right?
I'm sure there's more i'm leaving out, but those are the main two that've been on my mind the last couple days.
I'm not even sure what i'm depressed about. Everything? Nothing? Something?
I'm unhappy about how things have been with Kayla ever since our fight a couple weeks ago. I'm basically stuck going through the same thing I did with Jenny when she ignored me for Bj and David. Not only does she seem to not notice she's doing it, but she either doesn't notice it's depressing the fuck out of me or she just doesn't care. She barely bothers to talk to me or even say bye or goodnight anymore. While she's right and she doesn't HAVE to say goodnight, when you go from actually caring about someone and talking a lot to you barely saying anything and just leaving without so much as a word, it tends to hurt a bit. Everything's changed in mere weeks, and after having to go through it with Jenny, I just can't take it again.
I'm also pissed at myself because I hung out with Joe this last weekend, and his girlfriend had a friend hanging out too. So basically I wound up spending most of the night talking with her and had a good time and thought she was really cute and felt an attraction, but didn't make a move. The ONLY thing stopping me was that she had a boyfriend, but even then, I still wanted to. I feel like a bit of a douche for that in the first place, but both her and Joe mentioned during the night that things between her and the boyfriend weren't going well, and she seemed interested in me, so I really think I had a decent chance at something for once and missed it, boyfriend or no, so I'm kinda hating myself over that right now.
I'm broke, alone, and feeling pretty worthless right now. But hey, at least I have more alcohol, right?
I'm sure there's more i'm leaving out, but those are the main two that've been on my mind the last couple days.