I Was So Tired Of Being Upset
So...after a long talk with my psychologist, we came to a few conclusions:
1: There is no way that I could possibly be as horrible looking as I seem to think I am.
2:People respect you more if you respect yourself.
3: A way to show you respect yourself is taking pride in your appearance.
So, with that decided, I am taking my first bold steps into "taking care of myself". This means no more leaving the house looking like I just rolled out of bed. No more acting like I dont give a damn about myself-cause who else is going to if I dont? And who knows, maybe Ill feel more attractive if Im NOT SHUFFLING AROUND LIKE A ZOMBIE. I worked out a tentative schedule for mornings to give me enough time to shower and actually "do" my hair. Im still not wearing makeup, tho. That stuff is not for me.
Its weird how making decisions like this can make you feel so much better about yourself. Go me.
Other then that, this weekend has been pretty cool. Just hanging out with the boys, watching movies and playing video games. For reasons unbeknownst to anyone but himself, Corban has been quietly going mad for a few days now. He dosent seem to want to discuss it, so I wont push him, Ill just be here for him.
You know, for all the dicks that are in my life, I do have two really good friends. And even though our friendship dosent exacltly make sence, I still love them both to death and wouldnt trade them for the world. Corban and Chip make me feel lucky, in a weird way. I hope I return the favor.
And I just found out the friggin BUZZCOCKS are going on tour this summer...and the Columbus date is already scheduled. Sometimes, life is GOOD.
Oooh, its late. I need sleep. So...I guess Ill go do that.
1: There is no way that I could possibly be as horrible looking as I seem to think I am.
2:People respect you more if you respect yourself.
3: A way to show you respect yourself is taking pride in your appearance.
So, with that decided, I am taking my first bold steps into "taking care of myself". This means no more leaving the house looking like I just rolled out of bed. No more acting like I dont give a damn about myself-cause who else is going to if I dont? And who knows, maybe Ill feel more attractive if Im NOT SHUFFLING AROUND LIKE A ZOMBIE. I worked out a tentative schedule for mornings to give me enough time to shower and actually "do" my hair. Im still not wearing makeup, tho. That stuff is not for me.
Its weird how making decisions like this can make you feel so much better about yourself. Go me.
Other then that, this weekend has been pretty cool. Just hanging out with the boys, watching movies and playing video games. For reasons unbeknownst to anyone but himself, Corban has been quietly going mad for a few days now. He dosent seem to want to discuss it, so I wont push him, Ill just be here for him.
You know, for all the dicks that are in my life, I do have two really good friends. And even though our friendship dosent exacltly make sence, I still love them both to death and wouldnt trade them for the world. Corban and Chip make me feel lucky, in a weird way. I hope I return the favor.
And I just found out the friggin BUZZCOCKS are going on tour this summer...and the Columbus date is already scheduled. Sometimes, life is GOOD.
Oooh, its late. I need sleep. So...I guess Ill go do that.