Icha Icha Paradise ~ ♫
Name: M
Age: Eighteen
Gender: Confused. Physically, female.
How many stampings have you had at ninjafy? 0
Likes: Silence, writing until I am empty of words, confessionalist poetry (Sylvia Plath), music - Tchaikovsky, Rachmaninov, Vienna Teng, Sarah McLachlan, Jack Johnson. Solitude, staying up until the first rays of dawn peek over the horizon, stars, hot hot showers. Piano keys. Playing those piano keys. Biology, both micro and macro. Learning to pick people apart. Peace. Oversized sweatshirts, companionship that does not need constant affirmation. Lazy summer afternoons. Philosophy, reading - Yukio Mishima, Dostoevsky, Nabokov.
Dislikes: Talking on the phone. Talking in general. Math. 99% of people, even if I secretly fear loneliness (shh, don't tell, it'll ruin my image). When I think too hard and trap myself in a pit. Carrots and bell peppers, modern art, romance novels, sappiness, people that do not understand the concept of common courtesy. The cold. Not having something to keep myself occupied with, and thus feeling inadequate. Having to wake up early in the morning.
Favorite quote/lyric/saying & why:
Those who have crossed
With direct eyes, to death’s other Kingdom
Remember us-if at all-not as lost
Violent souls, but only
As the hollow men
The stuffed men.
...
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper.
- from "The Hollow Men" by T.S. Eliot. He might have written it in 1925, but I still think it applies to the world today.
What do you feel is your best quality?: I'm a hard worker, when I tell myself I will accomplish something, it will be done, regardless of the consequences.
Your worst?: I am quiet, introverted, and quite unable to interact socially with others. I have a temper, but I tend to bottle up until I explode. I'm terribly negative. I can be over-critical - even if I don't always express it outwardly.
For the following section, please pick one or the other. Even if you show both traits, please pick the one that you feel you are most like, and if possible explain why you think you are more of this way.
Mature or Immature?: Others would call me mature, but a silent front always leads others to believe one is mature. I personally think I am horribly immature.
Leader or Follower?: I follow because I do not have the desire to lead.
Optimistic or Pessimistic?: Pessimistic, though I do have my rare optimistic moments.
Impulsive or Cautious: I am a bit of both, I believe. I do have a temper, which sometimes leads to awkward impulsive decisions. Most of the time, however, I try to be cautious.
Outgoing or Shy: I am not shy so much as merely quiet.
What color would you say you are and why?: I'm not colorful enough to be a color: I would be a shade of gray.
Do you play any instruments? Yes.
If you do, which one(s)? If not, which would you play? Piano piano piano. It is my release and my reason for being. I also dabble in guitar and flute, but I am not particularly fond of either. I very badly want to learn to play the cello.
Number one goal in life: To accomplish something. Something. Anything. To make my life worth something.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Hm. I can think of a variety of aspects I would like to change, but to have to pick just one of the above... my inability to relate with other people, the isolation that I am caught in.
If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be?: Ignorance and hatred, I would remove it all.
If you could become any character from the series for one day - 24 hours - who would it be?: A month ago, I would have said Itachi. Now, however, I think I would like to become Tsunade and effect some real change. And beat the hell out of anyone that pissed me off. :)
If you were given the chance to permanently become part of the Naruto-verse (as "yourself"), would you take it?: Yes. Yes, but only if I am given the chance to be born again.
How did you find this community?: A friend of mine.
Anything else?: Thank you for your time! ♥ :)