Losing hope
I'm having a hard time with this whole cf thing right now. Some days I just like I'm drowning because I can't get a full breathe anymore its awful. Maybe becaue im just thinking about it more. I hate night time, when its quiet and I'm trying to fall asleep, all these thoughts creep into my head. How long do I have to live?, what if my lungs are close to failing, why am i coughing more?. This disease is so frustrating. I'm really down today.
I have finals this week and a big history paper due but i just cant focus on it right now. If I could have one wish, I would just make this crap disease go away for everyone : ) It's not how i pictured my life to go, I hate living with an "experation date" as you could call it. I have so many dreams, but they keep getting farther away.. im losing hope.
I have finals this week and a big history paper due but i just cant focus on it right now. If I could have one wish, I would just make this crap disease go away for everyone : ) It's not how i pictured my life to go, I hate living with an "experation date" as you could call it. I have so many dreams, but they keep getting farther away.. im losing hope.