holy shit, i update??
Wow, am i really that bad of a friend?
honestly, i have no effect on people. NONE.
whatever i say usually goes in one ear, and out the other.
I usually have a lot on my mind, and a lot say.
especially lately.
I'm going to be honest. i am not pleased with myself.
i know I can be a bitch. but right now, im just not
going through the best time. and you saying things,
that obviously i don't want to talk about, doesn't help.
and im going to fucking snap at you, and take it out on you.
And your going to stand there, and tell me how fucking pitiful i am,
and how i have no respect for anyone. when i do.
i have so much respect for everyone, i would gladly take a bullet for them,
even if they hated me so much their intestines burnt.
and your going to stand there, and accuse me for everything i have done wrong in the past,
and your going to blame your problems on me, and take your frustrations out on me.
go ahead, take your best fucking shot. It's only going to add onto the stress and
dislike i have for myself as it is. its not going to make things better, in fact it will
make them worse, but if thats what you fucking need, if thats what you want..
to feel better. GO AHEAD. what are you waiting for?
all you wanted was to be happy. why should it matter if i'm not?
sound fair? no not really. but fuck, life isn't fair. i have to get over that.
life will never be fair, so why think it is now?
its understandable that everyone is stressed and mad at the world,
but how is it okay for me, who is taking in, all of your bullshit, who is standing there,
letting you criticize my every move, my every thought, my every opinion, how is it okay?
its not. but thats just how it is sometimes.
so now, ask yourself. am i really that fucking horrible of a person?
i take in more than i can handle. mainly because i bring it upon myself.
i have flaws, who doesn't. i say things i don't mean. why i say them, i don't know. [im just not thinking clearly.] Im not the brightest crayon in the box, but I'm not the dullest hue either.
I am me. thats all i need to know. Laura Grayam.
so now, instead of answering that question, answer this:
who/what am i to you?
honestly, i have no effect on people. NONE.
whatever i say usually goes in one ear, and out the other.
I usually have a lot on my mind, and a lot say.
especially lately.
I'm going to be honest. i am not pleased with myself.
i know I can be a bitch. but right now, im just not
going through the best time. and you saying things,
that obviously i don't want to talk about, doesn't help.
and im going to fucking snap at you, and take it out on you.
And your going to stand there, and tell me how fucking pitiful i am,
and how i have no respect for anyone. when i do.
i have so much respect for everyone, i would gladly take a bullet for them,
even if they hated me so much their intestines burnt.
and your going to stand there, and accuse me for everything i have done wrong in the past,
and your going to blame your problems on me, and take your frustrations out on me.
go ahead, take your best fucking shot. It's only going to add onto the stress and
dislike i have for myself as it is. its not going to make things better, in fact it will
make them worse, but if thats what you fucking need, if thats what you want..
to feel better. GO AHEAD. what are you waiting for?
all you wanted was to be happy. why should it matter if i'm not?
sound fair? no not really. but fuck, life isn't fair. i have to get over that.
life will never be fair, so why think it is now?
its understandable that everyone is stressed and mad at the world,
but how is it okay for me, who is taking in, all of your bullshit, who is standing there,
letting you criticize my every move, my every thought, my every opinion, how is it okay?
its not. but thats just how it is sometimes.
so now, ask yourself. am i really that fucking horrible of a person?
i take in more than i can handle. mainly because i bring it upon myself.
i have flaws, who doesn't. i say things i don't mean. why i say them, i don't know. [im just not thinking clearly.] Im not the brightest crayon in the box, but I'm not the dullest hue either.
I am me. thats all i need to know. Laura Grayam.
so now, instead of answering that question, answer this:
who/what am i to you?