forever
I know New Years is just another day. But somehow I feel really glad this year that there's a marker stuck in the snow saying yeah, we did it again. I celebrated last night with homemade beer and baker street fireworks. laughing at stupid drunk girls downtown and curling up on Amber's couch. Pulling happiness out of little orange shadows and quiet conversaton. Out of nothing. I never realized how still Nelson is on New Years. Downtown was deserted, I imagined everyone tucked inside warm with friends and a few bottles, laughing, reminiscing. Then us, outside, freezing. But being in love with that anyways. Today I watched Tank Girl and had insane lucid dreams, Then I went through my Livejournal archive and read every single entry and all your comments from the past year. Just sort of a personal reminiscing. That's what it's all written down for anyways. And you know what, I love myself, I love my friends, I love all the little events we grew through together. Some of the entries brought back memories with such clear feelings that it doesn't seem that long ago at all and others made me cry. Overall it was a good year. I learned a lot and haven't lost the songs. I don't feel grown up but I feel like I've grown. It's good, all of this. Olivia, Jesara, as soon as you get home we're having tea and telling stories. I have a good feeling in me, it's like seeing something beautiful written on a parkbench and no matter how much it rains, the ink never runs.