be still my heart
yeah so im using this journal again. im tired of having to keep everything boxed up inside of me. i need to let it all out. lifes going pretty good right now.. i have a new boyfriend, im getting all a's, im getting along somewhat better with my mom.. and then again this are going downhill... people are bitching at me for going to the corner in the morning which automatically makes me a 'failure'. and they all seem to think im going to go nowhere in life. what fantastic friends i have. everything outside is dead. and its making me very depressed. i need to lose 10lbs soon. if i dont, i dont know what im going to do. people are also getting mad at me for hanging out with 'freaks'. just because people dress differently doesnt make them bad people. fuck you. im sick and tired of everyone in our school. i love how people give me shit for going out with connor. big deal? and i love how all the upperclassmen give me dirty looks for no reason. high school definatley isnt what people say it is. at least for me. im in this hazy world and i cant get out of it. i need to punch someone. right now. if screaming into your pillow doesnt work, what does?