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hey everyone. tonight is the first day of spring break. kind of. my night consists of packing for fucking florida (im dreading it). my spring break is going to be a blast huh? spending time with family whom i hate. and airplanes, which im terribly scared of. maybe i should be looking forward to it, but im really not, id much rather stay here, with my friends and chill and party. but NO of course not. it sucks. and im in a really bad mood today, i know i shouldnt be because of spring break and all, but mine is ruined. and i miss james. i really do, i havent seen him in forever. i wish that tonight i could chill with him and emu (we made up by the way). maybe then id feel a little better. one of the reasons i dont want to go is because im going to be missing out on so much here. and then when i come back i'll feel out of place. nobody is going away; christine, kara, james, emu. none of my best friends. but i am. and tonight is brandons party, which i think is going to be really lame and im not going, but james and kara are. and hey guess who else is going! sara. joy. lets watch her and james flirt. when im not there. that'll be great, and make my day even better. anyways, yesterday i went to the dermatologist and she perscribed me 4 medications. one of them were pills and the other 3 were ointments. and in a month i have to go back so she can clear my pores with this metal pointy thing. it should be fun. and even though today is beautiful out, nothing is making me happy. nothing whatsoever. i miss emu and james too much, and i dont want to go to florida, and thats why im upset. im sitting here right now, burning cd's for the airplane and all the songs remind me of summer, which makes me even more sad. k well im crying now. and no im not trying to get attention, because i dont exactly like attention.