Filled with longing I cannot explain...
So, it's been a while since I've updated.
I've had a lot of fun here so far. The program still sucks, but I made some really great friends. There's a group I started hanging out with regularly (Mike, Emily, Mark, Catherine, Grant) which has been really fun. There was a bit of a drama with a guy named Patrick who has had the biggest crush on me and has crossed the line into making me really uncomfortable, but even that's settled down a bit now.
Last Saturday, the entire dorm was a big party... we had three birthdays that day (including Mark and my roommate, Bridget), and there was a ton of alcohol floating around this building. I'm amazed some people didn't die. But overall, it was REALLY fun, and I had a great time. Since then, however, I've really felt the effects of being in such a concentrated environment. I feel like I can't be here anymore, like I have to go home, NOW. I love the friends I've made, but I need to get out of this town. Dynamics between people change at the speed of light here, and I can't handle it. My relationships with people are changing rapidly, too, and once I get used to something it changes again.
On top of that, as well, I got an e-mail from Maya this morning announcing that my mother spent the night in the ER due to a blood clot. So I'm a bit flustered all around. :/
I've had a lot of fun here so far. The program still sucks, but I made some really great friends. There's a group I started hanging out with regularly (Mike, Emily, Mark, Catherine, Grant) which has been really fun. There was a bit of a drama with a guy named Patrick who has had the biggest crush on me and has crossed the line into making me really uncomfortable, but even that's settled down a bit now.
Last Saturday, the entire dorm was a big party... we had three birthdays that day (including Mark and my roommate, Bridget), and there was a ton of alcohol floating around this building. I'm amazed some people didn't die. But overall, it was REALLY fun, and I had a great time. Since then, however, I've really felt the effects of being in such a concentrated environment. I feel like I can't be here anymore, like I have to go home, NOW. I love the friends I've made, but I need to get out of this town. Dynamics between people change at the speed of light here, and I can't handle it. My relationships with people are changing rapidly, too, and once I get used to something it changes again.
On top of that, as well, I got an e-mail from Maya this morning announcing that my mother spent the night in the ER due to a blood clot. So I'm a bit flustered all around. :/