Update. nunca mas.
I'm realizing that I should stop thinking. The more I think, the more I find a reason not to do something. If I could just stop thinking, I would be able to do so much more. Even as I type this, I'm starting to back out of something deep down I know I should do, but I can't bring myself to. Giving myself a time limit, but I'll have to force myself to do it when the time comes.
Anyway, I'm in the middle of a huge jump. I'm going to try to join the Air Force. I know, I said I would join the marines a few months back, but that was for a very childish reason. I was running away from something I did then, wanting to distance myself from a very stupid thing I did. I wasn't giving any real thought to going through with it, it was more for the attention. This time, I genuinely want to change myself and see the world while I'm doing it. My family has been fairly supportive in the idea, friends too. I'm gonna go through with it this time.
Anyway, I'm in the middle of a huge jump. I'm going to try to join the Air Force. I know, I said I would join the marines a few months back, but that was for a very childish reason. I was running away from something I did then, wanting to distance myself from a very stupid thing I did. I wasn't giving any real thought to going through with it, it was more for the attention. This time, I genuinely want to change myself and see the world while I'm doing it. My family has been fairly supportive in the idea, friends too. I'm gonna go through with it this time.