never again
I'm a loser baby
So why don't you kill me?
This may very well be my last post for maybe a week or two. I've decided to actually follow through with my idea of going without tech for awhile. I hide behind my monitor more often than not. Instead of hanging out with friends, I make up some excuse to stay home and wind up spending hours roaming the internet. Hours later, nothing to show for the time spent and pictures on facebook of my friends having fun.
I'll be honest. I had a breakdown last night. All my lies I've built up over the years, kept me from really talking to anyone about what was wrong. I hurt my sisters dog and it was like in that instant everything that I've been holding back came out. All my emotions that I bottle up, all the things I want to say, everything came out all at once. And I cried, cried feeling like I was all alone.
I know that I'm not, but because of my tendency to lie and not being entirely trusting of everyone, I don't always know who I can talk to that won't let loose my secrets.
Anyways, it'll be at least a week. Hopefully I can sort myself out by the time I decide to come back.
So why don't you kill me?
This may very well be my last post for maybe a week or two. I've decided to actually follow through with my idea of going without tech for awhile. I hide behind my monitor more often than not. Instead of hanging out with friends, I make up some excuse to stay home and wind up spending hours roaming the internet. Hours later, nothing to show for the time spent and pictures on facebook of my friends having fun.
I'll be honest. I had a breakdown last night. All my lies I've built up over the years, kept me from really talking to anyone about what was wrong. I hurt my sisters dog and it was like in that instant everything that I've been holding back came out. All my emotions that I bottle up, all the things I want to say, everything came out all at once. And I cried, cried feeling like I was all alone.
I know that I'm not, but because of my tendency to lie and not being entirely trusting of everyone, I don't always know who I can talk to that won't let loose my secrets.
Anyways, it'll be at least a week. Hopefully I can sort myself out by the time I decide to come back.