i want a new life and i want it to be yours

[ningyo_taiyo]

i want to be a loser.  im alone, totally and completely..  this is the state of things.  i am connected to myself, and finally feel that intuitive thing br. was talking about.  i want to be by myself, in a trailer maybe, watching weird TV as nourishment.  i want to not have to interact with people or live with them.  i want to stay up late as possible.  i want to create a world for myself full of things i love.  it feels like october.  i want to find things and watch things and do nothing else.  i want to be alone.

no solution/ no escape