Lucy, I'm home!
Ok, I haven't posted on this thing in forever on a 'regular' basis.
It brings back memories of my early twenties and how much I've grown as a person since then.
I call it my "goth days" to my new friends as they'd never understand how anyone could have a 'goth' streak in them. Truth is, I enjoyed those times. The chance to do wild things amongst peers and not be judged because we were all weirdos together :)
Lately, since I've turned 30, I've realized how much I've changed. I feel the need to grow spiritualy now. Before my 'goth' days, I was raised Christian: Anglican with a touch of Baptist. Talk about anal retentive family. I wasn't even allowed to watch The Simpsons when it first started! After MUCH pursuading, my mom (she was an exremely hard working single mom) gave in and allowed it. No Madonna or horror movies though. Boo, I thought. Life sucked!
Then I moved in with my dad. He didn't give a rats ass about what I did. So I partied. A lot. But I also started to pay particular attention to the ever 'forbidden' occult shows, roman and greek mythology, horror movie and tarot cards. After some disscussion with my two cousins, we decided that we must have all been witches in past lives, and always together through each lifetime. I think we all pretended like that was just a silly story, but then we started to believe it.
At that point, in my mid-late teens, I officially became a self practising Wiccan.
I read the books and surfed the 'net while icquing my other 'neo-pagan and wiccan' friends. I cast a circles, ouijied on Haloween night (NEVER doing that again!) and cast spells. You know what? They all worked too!
Then I went to college and really let loose. I dyed my hair black and blue, dressed gothy and had fun outrageous make up. Went to a lot of concerts and had good times.
Enter adulthood. I had to get a job, pay the bills etc all in a small town. I drifted away from all that, but still had a secret crush on the occult.
Thats where we come to today. This year I turned 30. I started to question who I am and how I became here. Whats my purpose? The usual stuff, but unlike some, I researched. I questioned my roots as an Anglican, Christian. I read books, bibles and thesis. Whats the ONE true religion? Everyone major religion is claiming they are the truth to God and that everyone elses is wrong and thats why we have so many wars, and so much hate.
Last week, I stumbled upon an AMAZING book called The Pagan Christ, by Tom Harpour. It changed my life. As an Anglican priest, he tells of how the Christian religion and Judaism are all myths and how they are a replica of MANY religions including that of Egyptian, Buddhisim, and Roman among others. I thought, if this guy is a PRIEST and he sees the truth, then I must have been on to something before.
It got me thinking. I used to practise these religions once, when I was wiccan and it felt so right. Christians would argue that I'm following false prophets, I'm satan, or and that I'm going to hell because of this. But I dont believe in hell to start with, so why should I be worried about what their 'church' tells them to believe. Truly, they should be listening to their own hearts on what to belive in, instead of listening to what their told to.
So, to sum this all up folks, I'm offically Pagan again.
Blessed Be!
"When one defines oneself as Pagan, it means she or he follows an earth or nature religion, one that sees the divine manifest in all creation. The cycles of nature are our holy days, the earth is our temple, its plants and creatures our partners and teachers. We worship a deity that is both male and female, a mother Goddess and father God, who together created all that is, was, or will be. We respect life, cherish the free will of sentient beings, and accept the sacredness of all creation." Edain McCoy
It brings back memories of my early twenties and how much I've grown as a person since then.
I call it my "goth days" to my new friends as they'd never understand how anyone could have a 'goth' streak in them. Truth is, I enjoyed those times. The chance to do wild things amongst peers and not be judged because we were all weirdos together :)
Lately, since I've turned 30, I've realized how much I've changed. I feel the need to grow spiritualy now. Before my 'goth' days, I was raised Christian: Anglican with a touch of Baptist. Talk about anal retentive family. I wasn't even allowed to watch The Simpsons when it first started! After MUCH pursuading, my mom (she was an exremely hard working single mom) gave in and allowed it. No Madonna or horror movies though. Boo, I thought. Life sucked!
Then I moved in with my dad. He didn't give a rats ass about what I did. So I partied. A lot. But I also started to pay particular attention to the ever 'forbidden' occult shows, roman and greek mythology, horror movie and tarot cards. After some disscussion with my two cousins, we decided that we must have all been witches in past lives, and always together through each lifetime. I think we all pretended like that was just a silly story, but then we started to believe it.
At that point, in my mid-late teens, I officially became a self practising Wiccan.
I read the books and surfed the 'net while icquing my other 'neo-pagan and wiccan' friends. I cast a circles, ouijied on Haloween night (NEVER doing that again!) and cast spells. You know what? They all worked too!
Then I went to college and really let loose. I dyed my hair black and blue, dressed gothy and had fun outrageous make up. Went to a lot of concerts and had good times.
Enter adulthood. I had to get a job, pay the bills etc all in a small town. I drifted away from all that, but still had a secret crush on the occult.
Thats where we come to today. This year I turned 30. I started to question who I am and how I became here. Whats my purpose? The usual stuff, but unlike some, I researched. I questioned my roots as an Anglican, Christian. I read books, bibles and thesis. Whats the ONE true religion? Everyone major religion is claiming they are the truth to God and that everyone elses is wrong and thats why we have so many wars, and so much hate.
Last week, I stumbled upon an AMAZING book called The Pagan Christ, by Tom Harpour. It changed my life. As an Anglican priest, he tells of how the Christian religion and Judaism are all myths and how they are a replica of MANY religions including that of Egyptian, Buddhisim, and Roman among others. I thought, if this guy is a PRIEST and he sees the truth, then I must have been on to something before.
It got me thinking. I used to practise these religions once, when I was wiccan and it felt so right. Christians would argue that I'm following false prophets, I'm satan, or and that I'm going to hell because of this. But I dont believe in hell to start with, so why should I be worried about what their 'church' tells them to believe. Truly, they should be listening to their own hearts on what to belive in, instead of listening to what their told to.
So, to sum this all up folks, I'm offically Pagan again.
Blessed Be!
"When one defines oneself as Pagan, it means she or he follows an earth or nature religion, one that sees the divine manifest in all creation. The cycles of nature are our holy days, the earth is our temple, its plants and creatures our partners and teachers. We worship a deity that is both male and female, a mother Goddess and father God, who together created all that is, was, or will be. We respect life, cherish the free will of sentient beings, and accept the sacredness of all creation." Edain McCoy