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I should be getting dressed for work but i really have an urge to update.
I dont remember the last time i wrote in here. but alot of things have been going on.
Im on week 3 of my externship. and i think its going well. im really busy so my day goes by fast. which is good. i would hate to have a boring dragging day. just like school was.
i stopped by birth control also. and already ive seen a weight difference. yesterday i got a membership to cardio express in wallingford and it was just a great deal 25 bucks a month for a year.
I've been hanging out with alot of new people and i enjoy it. i like having friends outside of the group of people i hang out with everyday. i like having the variety and also i can tell these people are good people that hopefully wont fuck me over. ALSO.... i think its funny how some of them i never thought id be friends with 2 years ago. cough kelly and nicole cough .but come to find out they are awesome and im sorry for giving them a shitty first impression.
Muriel and i are finally hanging out...outside of COLLEGE. haha. even though we dont go to the same school. shes not 7mins away. but i told her we'd still hang out this summer. and knowing that wolcott is only a hlaf hour away rules. and also that i remember how to get there without directions is even better. thank you danielle's mom! suck that me and her arent friends anymore. but wierder that she asked justen how i was at a party. i guess some times people grow up.
Justen and I have been talking lately and being serious about getting a place. we've talked before about it, but nothing seriously and we decided it would be nice. i hate sleeping with out him, so i'd be happier and i think things would be different bout our relatioship. i probably wouldnt be as clingy as i am now. being that im so far away from him now.
Shroud of Turin has 2 shows this weekend. 1 in Torrington and 1 in Madison.
My real nerd came out last month, seing as today is June 1st. I saw Star Wars III, twice and i'm definately going again with my mom and aunt.
And maybe tonight, I'll see Madagascar. that movie looks cute and kinda funny. Chris Rock is a zebra. wonderful!!
This time last year i was graduating high school, and in 12 days I'm graduating Brandford Hall. crazy.
Fathers Day -- it brings me down, i hate seeing the ads and the commercials and t he emails for fathers day cards from hallmark. I wish my father was here. I was i could wake up and he'd be walking around or watching the game, JUST SOMETHING! I told Nicole the other day that i have accepted this. but now part of me feels like i have that chance to one day come home and everyone to be like dads coming home from his long vacation. I will go see him on fathers day. i just hope that i can actually stay for more than 5 seconds. i hope his headstone is in before than. his grave looks so empty. and we did get a beautiful stone. i hope to take a picture of it. and i want to get one of the flower arrangements that says DAD in it and leave it for him.
i never talk bout that but it feels good to write bout it. since i know it makes people uncomfortable. but it happened to me so young and its so unfair. i miss his smile and laugh and when he sneezes! haha no one will understand how much i'd make fun of him for that. i feel wierd cleaning out rooms and packing his stuff up to put in a box to leave in the basement. i hate hartford hospital. they took my father from me. we trusted them. thats the worse part. i dont think i'll ever be able to watch the super bowl and not remember what i was going through this year. or on Valentines Day, i wont forget that card we bought him, the heart with wings, and then 3 days later he passed away. we gave him his wings to stop suffering.
i guess i should say, dont take people for granted because now i realize that you dont know when you'll lose them. and its the worst feeling ever.
I dont remember the last time i wrote in here. but alot of things have been going on.
Im on week 3 of my externship. and i think its going well. im really busy so my day goes by fast. which is good. i would hate to have a boring dragging day. just like school was.
i stopped by birth control also. and already ive seen a weight difference. yesterday i got a membership to cardio express in wallingford and it was just a great deal 25 bucks a month for a year.
I've been hanging out with alot of new people and i enjoy it. i like having friends outside of the group of people i hang out with everyday. i like having the variety and also i can tell these people are good people that hopefully wont fuck me over. ALSO.... i think its funny how some of them i never thought id be friends with 2 years ago. cough kelly and nicole cough .but come to find out they are awesome and im sorry for giving them a shitty first impression.
Muriel and i are finally hanging out...outside of COLLEGE. haha. even though we dont go to the same school. shes not 7mins away. but i told her we'd still hang out this summer. and knowing that wolcott is only a hlaf hour away rules. and also that i remember how to get there without directions is even better. thank you danielle's mom! suck that me and her arent friends anymore. but wierder that she asked justen how i was at a party. i guess some times people grow up.
Justen and I have been talking lately and being serious about getting a place. we've talked before about it, but nothing seriously and we decided it would be nice. i hate sleeping with out him, so i'd be happier and i think things would be different bout our relatioship. i probably wouldnt be as clingy as i am now. being that im so far away from him now.
Shroud of Turin has 2 shows this weekend. 1 in Torrington and 1 in Madison.
My real nerd came out last month, seing as today is June 1st. I saw Star Wars III, twice and i'm definately going again with my mom and aunt.
And maybe tonight, I'll see Madagascar. that movie looks cute and kinda funny. Chris Rock is a zebra. wonderful!!
This time last year i was graduating high school, and in 12 days I'm graduating Brandford Hall. crazy.
Fathers Day -- it brings me down, i hate seeing the ads and the commercials and t he emails for fathers day cards from hallmark. I wish my father was here. I was i could wake up and he'd be walking around or watching the game, JUST SOMETHING! I told Nicole the other day that i have accepted this. but now part of me feels like i have that chance to one day come home and everyone to be like dads coming home from his long vacation. I will go see him on fathers day. i just hope that i can actually stay for more than 5 seconds. i hope his headstone is in before than. his grave looks so empty. and we did get a beautiful stone. i hope to take a picture of it. and i want to get one of the flower arrangements that says DAD in it and leave it for him.
i never talk bout that but it feels good to write bout it. since i know it makes people uncomfortable. but it happened to me so young and its so unfair. i miss his smile and laugh and when he sneezes! haha no one will understand how much i'd make fun of him for that. i feel wierd cleaning out rooms and packing his stuff up to put in a box to leave in the basement. i hate hartford hospital. they took my father from me. we trusted them. thats the worse part. i dont think i'll ever be able to watch the super bowl and not remember what i was going through this year. or on Valentines Day, i wont forget that card we bought him, the heart with wings, and then 3 days later he passed away. we gave him his wings to stop suffering.
i guess i should say, dont take people for granted because now i realize that you dont know when you'll lose them. and its the worst feeling ever.