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you kinda left me standing here. but you kind of always have. when it comes to us. we. you and i. i have always been jaded. its never been black and white and its never been simple. i just dont know. i dont care as much as i thought i did, and neither do you.
it always end up this way but i never though me and you would. when i said we were best friends i sincerely thought we were. when i said i loved you it was because i meant it. but i dont love you anymore. because i dont know you anymore. ill always love who you were.
i cant blame anyone else because i think it's obvious. when im the one whos always alone in the end, i always get left behind ..its my fault. i kind of always fuck things up. i dont think ill ever be loved. i dont think ill ever have friends that care about me. ill never be/have the best friend that you die without. i dont trust anyone, i dont really love anyone anymore either. no one gives me a reason to.
i guess all the time i invest into anyone doesnt matter.
i guess al the heart i put into it doesnt matter.
it's just never good enough.
im not looking for any sympathy, i dont want it. im just learning that a lot of things arent worth my time.
times change and so do people.
but for some reason im always left this way
im no good. i suck.
im alone. and im used to it.
thats just the way it is. thats just the way it will always be.
it always end up this way but i never though me and you would. when i said we were best friends i sincerely thought we were. when i said i loved you it was because i meant it. but i dont love you anymore. because i dont know you anymore. ill always love who you were.
i cant blame anyone else because i think it's obvious. when im the one whos always alone in the end, i always get left behind ..its my fault. i kind of always fuck things up. i dont think ill ever be loved. i dont think ill ever have friends that care about me. ill never be/have the best friend that you die without. i dont trust anyone, i dont really love anyone anymore either. no one gives me a reason to.
i guess all the time i invest into anyone doesnt matter.
i guess al the heart i put into it doesnt matter.
it's just never good enough.
im not looking for any sympathy, i dont want it. im just learning that a lot of things arent worth my time.
times change and so do people.
but for some reason im always left this way
im no good. i suck.
im alone. and im used to it.
thats just the way it is. thats just the way it will always be.