I am indeed alive
Yeah I know, its been forever and a half since ive been on here. I Do not really have much to say im not in the best place for me right now, and everyone knows it, and everyone feels it. Its like an unseen force, that is constantly pulling me away from here, but i resist it, because i cant go. And it makes me sick, literally sick. My stomach is in an uproar my jaw aches and im under so much stress I feel as though im going to snap. I used to want to Dissapear for a while, go into some hermitudal state, but I think i want a false death now. The Difference being that with this "death" i can go away and disapear, and people will forget about me and move on, whereas me just disapearing, everyone would still know im there and think about me.