Lately
So, an update of sorts. Woo.
I've been feeling kind of odd lately. We've started taking B12 supliments. I think it has helped Aurora and I joke and laugh a lot more than we had been. I like that. We'd been kinda blah. Not that things haven't been blah inducing, but still. I like laughing, and I like laughing with her.
The trade-off; if you can even call it that, is that lately (and this might not have anything to do with the B 12) my brain seems to be working/thinking like it used to... well, mostly a decade ago. Damn, I'm old. (get off my lawn!)
Much more introspective, less certain, maybe more creative, or move vividly creative. Except this time, the great mystery of sex has been addressed, and it doesn't really answer anything, though it is fun. Maybe my sex drive will perk back up too. That would be nice.
Maybe not having anything much to work on for a while has made my brain shift gears again. I feel like I can't really throw myself into anything until I've got a job that lets me afford to spend money on my hobbies. When I knew I was going to be unemployed I thought maybe I could finally persue my hobbies as employment. Now I'm scared of the failure, and frankly short of enthusiasm for much of anything.
I know I am a person with thoughts and interests outside of work, I'm not necessarily the sort to marry my job. But my job allows me to persue everything else. It's the fuel and the background for all the rest. And machines only coast for so far.
I've been feeling kind of odd lately. We've started taking B12 supliments. I think it has helped Aurora and I joke and laugh a lot more than we had been. I like that. We'd been kinda blah. Not that things haven't been blah inducing, but still. I like laughing, and I like laughing with her.
The trade-off; if you can even call it that, is that lately (and this might not have anything to do with the B 12) my brain seems to be working/thinking like it used to... well, mostly a decade ago. Damn, I'm old. (get off my lawn!)
Much more introspective, less certain, maybe more creative, or move vividly creative. Except this time, the great mystery of sex has been addressed, and it doesn't really answer anything, though it is fun. Maybe my sex drive will perk back up too. That would be nice.
Maybe not having anything much to work on for a while has made my brain shift gears again. I feel like I can't really throw myself into anything until I've got a job that lets me afford to spend money on my hobbies. When I knew I was going to be unemployed I thought maybe I could finally persue my hobbies as employment. Now I'm scared of the failure, and frankly short of enthusiasm for much of anything.
I know I am a person with thoughts and interests outside of work, I'm not necessarily the sort to marry my job. But my job allows me to persue everything else. It's the fuel and the background for all the rest. And machines only coast for so far.