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[ninechances]

i was trying so hard to accomplish what you were trying to do for 3 years. I guess it was just too long of break and we both lost touch of the feeling. Thinking back I forgot to tell you this: I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, but what hurts more is I thought I would still die for you. I'm gone for good this time. No one will know that I'm down here anyway. I can't turn back the clocks and you can't pull me up from here so don't try. The last shot we had and you're still going on with whatever it is you go on with. I stopped for you everytime. You even said you had changed and from your actions lately....no...no you haven't. Sad fact. Don't know why I even came back for the millionth time. This is way overdue. Leave it up to me to take the blame for things still. All I have to say now is the more you talk the less I hear and I'm learning ways to not feel. We will not end up together in any life if I have the last word.

i tried so hard to be her day
but the night has already taken me away
shedding dreams under the maple tree
where i carved your name
nothing left, not even time
straight reads the line
his life had reached the end
wanting only to be loved by adrienne
letters explained his grief
but she would never read
his wrists would bleed
but she would never see
so he took his life at the age of 23
and she had always loved him
be he would never know
for she covered her love
like stars cover the sky
hiding her heart
fearing what he would find inside
years took her away
a widow she remained
holding him deep inside
wishing she too would die
time favors no one and if we wait
we too can fall in love
a second too late

if you want to do something with me this weekend. you call me. i'm not calling anyone anymore cause you people never answer your phone.