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nothing to say. it's ridiculous how there can be a million things in your head, but when you decide to type them out... nothing pops up.
my back hurts.
i have horrible posture while sitting at my desk. i end up hunched over like a 105 year old lady.
i'm mad at myself. in the course of 6 months last year (jan - end of june) i lost 50lbs. i looked great, i felt great. i still had a ways to go, but damnit, i was getting there. and then i just stopped. no reason. just lazy, secretly hate myself or something, i dunno, really, i just stopped. and now i've gained every. single. pound. back. and it's almost the holidays, which makes it harder. i HAVE to lose it back. i HAVE to. you just don't understand. i HAVE to lose this weight before march of next year. that's 5 months. while i may not be able to lose 50lbs in 5 months, i can lose most of it. i just have to do it.
anyways. that's all.
my back hurts.
i have horrible posture while sitting at my desk. i end up hunched over like a 105 year old lady.
i'm mad at myself. in the course of 6 months last year (jan - end of june) i lost 50lbs. i looked great, i felt great. i still had a ways to go, but damnit, i was getting there. and then i just stopped. no reason. just lazy, secretly hate myself or something, i dunno, really, i just stopped. and now i've gained every. single. pound. back. and it's almost the holidays, which makes it harder. i HAVE to lose it back. i HAVE to. you just don't understand. i HAVE to lose this weight before march of next year. that's 5 months. while i may not be able to lose 50lbs in 5 months, i can lose most of it. i just have to do it.
anyways. that's all.