ghosts

[ninanitro]

I feel invisible. I moved away and the first week, it was all texts and emails and phonecalls. now its nothing. i still have no job, i dont have any friends, i dont have any money, its like im disappearing. i go whole days without talking to anyone until my cousin gets home and we talk about our boys back home and her workday and then she goes to bed. i'm losing my mind. i bug this one boy all the time to hang out, he cant and it fucking blows, im already pushing my only friend up here away. im drinking fucking mikes hard lemonades by myself, right now, and i just got off the phone with my boy who tells me his car is too fucked to drive up here. boo.

i just want life to start. a month of inbetween shit is just too much for me.