I don't know...
I am not TOTALLY sure but I think I have screwed up...First who was I to think I could handle these classes? I don't know what I was thinking in my head when I thought I could do this...but i know one thing...I can't do it...It's stressful and it's still the first month of school...This is NOT going to work and if it does i will count it as a miracle...Second Who was I to think I could live without you? I don't know about this either...If this is the right decision...Hell...I don't know...this is stupid...You were so comfortable, but is that the only reason I feel this way?...or do I still love you?...And that's a stupid question, I always will...In some part of me I always will...there are only 2 people that I have ever given my heart too...and I don't have either of them..i will deal....Third Who was I to think I couldn't live without God?...that is the stupidest of all...I don't know what i'm going to do now...I've screwed just about everything up that I could have and now I have nothing left...Sure i have friends, food, shelter, all the necessities...but I don't have the 2 things that meant the most to me...and I'm stressed out all of the time...and rachael is snoring which is in turn making me stressed b/c i can't sleep...maybe I should wake her up, that usually helps...well anyway...off to try and sleep...