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So I've been packing for school for the past four hours. It's not as thrilling and exciting as it was last summer. I feel like I never really got settled into my room so I have no attachment to it (don't say 'amongst other things'), collecting my stuff is pretty easy. I'm only taking one full suitcase of clothes. The other suitcase has sweatshirts, shoes, bags, and other things like that. Then I have a plastic rolly thing filled with my crap crap---books, movies, various stuffed bunnies, posters, and schoolish stuff. I'll collect my winter clothes over Thanksgiving or before that if the weather calls.
I'm not sad to leave. I can handle not seeing you guys for a few months. Well, I'll be making some visits to Boston, Poughkeepsie, Bing, and hopefully, but less likely, College Park. It's just a few weeks, guys.
You know how in elementary school, when it was your birthday, your mom made cupcakes for the class, and then you and a friend would go around to your friends, siblings, favorite teacher, and the principle and give them each a cupcake? Well I never got to do that. I'd get one from my sister in November, and my brother in April, but I never got to give give them out. Just another thing I missed out on as a kid--just like all the great TV between 1993-2001. Well tomorrow is my sad summer birthday. 19--the last time I'm a teenager. And I think that if someone asks me how it feels, for the first time i'll actually say It feels very different. I feel old. I feel grown up (although I may not act it :-p). I'm not going to grow anymore-- I'm 5' 4.5" for life. My plan is not to live in this house next summer. I'm going to vote in November. (And so should all of you.) My only ties to my parents are basically financially. In the middle of the summer I had a dream that my parents died in a car accident and I had to put everything together for the funeral and whatnot. I woke up startled and terrified. I figured I was having morbid dreams because of the fresh memories of my grandmother. But then I went online to some random dream interpreter site and looked under "death."
Death is an everyday part of life. So dreams often use it to illustrate leaving something behind, such as childhood or a relationship. Also parts of ones feelings sometimes die. Our love for someone might die for instance, and so our dream illustrates this with a death, perhaps of that person. Some teenagers dream of their parents dying as they start to become independent. This is a form of killing of dependent feelings about their parents as a means of growth. This happens in some relationships too, where we want to break with the person.
This summer was an adventure, and I am sad it's coming to a close. For years birthday just reminded me I have to go back to school, the leaves are going to change, the days will be shorter, I'll be insanely busy, and very tired. But this year I don't see it like that at all. It's telling me I have two days until I am out of this house and on my own--I'm hopeful!
I'm used to spending my birthday alone, because everyone is on vacation right before they go back to school. But this year, although I will be alone considering almost everyone has left or is leaving for school, I don't feel alone. :-)
Everyone have an awesome semester, I'll see you soon!
From Sunday on my address will be:
Nina Dyer
25 Union Square West C1-3DA
New York, NY 10003
I'm not sad to leave. I can handle not seeing you guys for a few months. Well, I'll be making some visits to Boston, Poughkeepsie, Bing, and hopefully, but less likely, College Park. It's just a few weeks, guys.
You know how in elementary school, when it was your birthday, your mom made cupcakes for the class, and then you and a friend would go around to your friends, siblings, favorite teacher, and the principle and give them each a cupcake? Well I never got to do that. I'd get one from my sister in November, and my brother in April, but I never got to give give them out. Just another thing I missed out on as a kid--just like all the great TV between 1993-2001. Well tomorrow is my sad summer birthday. 19--the last time I'm a teenager. And I think that if someone asks me how it feels, for the first time i'll actually say It feels very different. I feel old. I feel grown up (although I may not act it :-p). I'm not going to grow anymore-- I'm 5' 4.5" for life. My plan is not to live in this house next summer. I'm going to vote in November. (And so should all of you.) My only ties to my parents are basically financially. In the middle of the summer I had a dream that my parents died in a car accident and I had to put everything together for the funeral and whatnot. I woke up startled and terrified. I figured I was having morbid dreams because of the fresh memories of my grandmother. But then I went online to some random dream interpreter site and looked under "death."
Death is an everyday part of life. So dreams often use it to illustrate leaving something behind, such as childhood or a relationship. Also parts of ones feelings sometimes die. Our love for someone might die for instance, and so our dream illustrates this with a death, perhaps of that person. Some teenagers dream of their parents dying as they start to become independent. This is a form of killing of dependent feelings about their parents as a means of growth. This happens in some relationships too, where we want to break with the person.
This summer was an adventure, and I am sad it's coming to a close. For years birthday just reminded me I have to go back to school, the leaves are going to change, the days will be shorter, I'll be insanely busy, and very tired. But this year I don't see it like that at all. It's telling me I have two days until I am out of this house and on my own--I'm hopeful!
I'm used to spending my birthday alone, because everyone is on vacation right before they go back to school. But this year, although I will be alone considering almost everyone has left or is leaving for school, I don't feel alone. :-)
Everyone have an awesome semester, I'll see you soon!
From Sunday on my address will be:
Nina Dyer
25 Union Square West C1-3DA
New York, NY 10003