(67) insomnia.
it's three-twnety am, i can't sleep. i feel sad. no, unhappy is a more appropriate word to use. i don't know why; this time i'm not lying. i really don't know why. well, i have an idea as to why of course. but, i really don't know why i'm getting upset about it.
a part of it is probably because of the stress in school. it's really up to a point where i can't take it anymore.
and there's the decision ive made by not rushing into things with harold. im trying to be patient; i really am. but, this is the issue. i think, this is why i'm feeling down. i mean, everything's fine between us. im content enough, but when i'm with him, i feel so so happy and 'she's-all-smiles' kind of feeling, but at the same time, i have this feeling of we can't be together, or, he doesn't want us to be together. i could SO just be assuming all of this, and acting paranoid, but i had to let it out.
lj really helps me, even if it's just typing it on my journal, i feel better, knowing someone knows what i feel.
hopefully i'm not too depressed tomorrow. i need to crack down on my three-part english assessment task. it's the first assessment task of my HSC year. woohoo. -_- i'm planning on taking the day off school tomorrow; i don't think i'll wake up anyway .. it's freaking three-thirty am. goodnight guys ♥.