(64) ramblings about lovelovelove,
you guys must be tired of hearing me ramble and daydream about harold nowadays, so im planning to just lj-cut these kind of posts xD this is my journal and i like keeping a tab on things and jotting thoughts down because i like amusing myself with what ive written down in the past roflol. ive been keeping journals/diaries since i was .. 8? and now that life's more innovative and such, i dont have time to handwrite updates in a diary (even though i have one). this is where livejournal is useful =)
anyway~ harold,
my heart still flutters and feels squishy and my legs feel wobbly and i cant stop looking and thinking about you constanly and im pretty sure i see cartoon love hearts floating around you whenever isee you. i don't know why. you always smile when you're with me. i try not to smile 'too much' but i can't help it too. i dont know whether you're "holding back" as well but god knows i am. i dont know whether that overwhelming-ly beautiful smile just sneaks out of your mouth and you kick yourself because you're smiling too much. because god knows i do. i sit at home, lie down in bed, daydreaming at school, all these times, 24/7 thnking about you and just. thinking of what could be and what i think would be if one of us finally acts on it. i feel like im watching a movie and that if i were, i would be screaming at the girl on the tv, screaming at her to do like, a confession of some sort, give more hints, or whatver, because god knows, it's driving me crazy just thinking about what things could happen. i know im in love. maybe it's because i finally met someone who smiles at me from far away, someone who ive grown confortable around with in a matter of a few weeks, someone who's different. in a sense that you're not an average eighteen-year-old that i would come across with at a party. someone who's smart, sensible, adorable, responsible and someone who makes my day just by being there.
i know all this ive written implies that im being impatient about our situation, but believe me, im willing to take this as slow as possible. our little mingling in the aisles, smiling and complaining about how work sucks (but when i think about it, it doesnt. because you're there ^^), the unecessary conversations during breaks, me just absently looking for you, asking "when are you working next?" and leaving the place feeling short-handed, wanting more, needing more, it makes me look forward to the next time we see each other.
yeah, if you still didn't know- im in love. and i think i know what that means now ♥
boy with glasses, i really, really, really like you. like, whoa. you know?
(but you don't.
yet.)
haha. feel free to just, let me know how LAME this sounds y/y? aigoo. even im blushing and re-thinking of posting this atm D:
goodnight, whoever has read this ♥
anyway~ harold,
my heart still flutters and feels squishy and my legs feel wobbly and i cant stop looking and thinking about you constanly and im pretty sure i see cartoon love hearts floating around you whenever isee you. i don't know why. you always smile when you're with me. i try not to smile 'too much' but i can't help it too. i dont know whether you're "holding back" as well but god knows i am. i dont know whether that overwhelming-ly beautiful smile just sneaks out of your mouth and you kick yourself because you're smiling too much. because god knows i do. i sit at home, lie down in bed, daydreaming at school, all these times, 24/7 thnking about you and just. thinking of what could be and what i think would be if one of us finally acts on it. i feel like im watching a movie and that if i were, i would be screaming at the girl on the tv, screaming at her to do like, a confession of some sort, give more hints, or whatver, because god knows, it's driving me crazy just thinking about what things could happen. i know im in love. maybe it's because i finally met someone who smiles at me from far away, someone who ive grown confortable around with in a matter of a few weeks, someone who's different. in a sense that you're not an average eighteen-year-old that i would come across with at a party. someone who's smart, sensible, adorable, responsible and someone who makes my day just by being there.
i know all this ive written implies that im being impatient about our situation, but believe me, im willing to take this as slow as possible. our little mingling in the aisles, smiling and complaining about how work sucks (but when i think about it, it doesnt. because you're there ^^), the unecessary conversations during breaks, me just absently looking for you, asking "when are you working next?" and leaving the place feeling short-handed, wanting more, needing more, it makes me look forward to the next time we see each other.
yeah, if you still didn't know- im in love. and i think i know what that means now ♥
boy with glasses, i really, really, really like you. like, whoa. you know?
(but you don't.
yet.)
haha. feel free to just, let me know how LAME this sounds y/y? aigoo. even im blushing and re-thinking of posting this atm D:
goodnight, whoever has read this ♥