Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cannot believe I relapsed over such a jerk. He shouldn't mean shit to me, why do I still love him?
It's to bad really, but I guess men with no hearts can't love. Why did I have to fall in love with him? It has to be my fault somehow, I mean, I believed all the BS he fed me. I shouldn't have let him know how I felt for him. All he saw was some ( Read more... )
There are decent guys out there, I swear. I've got a few guy friends I wouldn't trade for the world. Shoot, I'd probably date some of them if they were older (they're just now sophmores and I'm a senior--I'm not too comfortable with that big of an age gap even though they're really good friends--not to mention there's one who's a junior and is my best friend's brother).
I tried to stay friends with my exes, but they were both super pissed at me. One of them made a bet with his best friend to ask me and my best friend out. They both dropped us really fast, especially when I got sick on our date, even though he knew about my stomach condition before. Oh boy where they two-faced, silmy jerks. They got a real kick out of it because they dated and dumped girls who were in the grade above them (hence why I don't date underclassmen--even if they are older than me).
I dumped my other ex--he was an abusive jerk--but I wanted to stay friends so that we could discuss like our favorite TV shows and such in a school setting and occasionally go see movies, but he was too pissed at me. Like it was my fault he was a jerk and that I was currently being abused by my own family memember and falling for Philippe (which he didn't know about--thankfully).
Crying is good--it's very theraputic and cleansing. I don't mean to sound all new-agey and such but it's try. It's really good just to cry. Letting go of those emotions is a good thing. I swear--I do it all the time.
Guys are jerks, Nina. Especially high school age ones. It gets easier though--being without them. Being independant is nice. My friend Kate and I are totally single (have been for a while) and we're very proud of it. It's empowering to know that you can take care of yourself and that you don't need a guy to rely on. But I know I still want to find a guy eventually because no one wants to live their life alone. I know I don't, but I've got my own shit to fix before adding a guy to the mix.
It's going to be okay. It's going to take time, but things are going to be just fine. :)
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