Complicated
When you hit a certain age, things aren't just left and right or up or down. They get complicated, and i guess i never believed I had any responsibilities till just now. I love some one, with all my heart, but things are too hard to go through right now. We fight, and argue and bicker and never see each other, and things need time. Rome wasnt built in a day, and things dont get better and simplier and less harsh just because you want them to. It takes a little more than faith and patience to build a strong relationship. and i guess i dont have that. Being as emotional as i am, i cant take 2 fights in the same day or being yelled at non stop. I am not like that. I guess i wish my life was perfect and it would be a mix of who i am now and who i was then. I want to make my own decisions on my life, but why cant they be a simple answer. See the most you got attached to something was a abby doll that you never wanted to wash or let go, that was what you loved. As you get older, its who you love that makes things more complicated than they have to be. Maybe its just you. You are the one who makes things unbelievably hard to cope with. I need time, to rebuild what i ahd before, to get over all those little fights and small disagreements that became something more. Something taht cant be pushed aside. And i'm sorry you ahd to be the one to deal with it with me. I love you, and you know who you are.