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Silly silly girl- putting herself in the position to be dissrespected. She should know better.
Ex boyfriends stiring up emtions, random boys dissrespecting her. Still wanting the one thing that she can't have.
I am toxic, I am an addictive drug.
My eyes carry blood;
My soul can't carry on anymore.
There is pain in me you can't experience;
I only wish that words could express the emptyness inside.
I want to be enfolded in his arms;
I want to forget everything,
And just be happy with your loves embrace.
I've been watching too many chick flicks. Oi I got my tickets for cali. I'm uberly excited. I've also been speaking wayy too much with Nicki. I have joined up in a part of the RPing of Harry Potter-ness. Which takes up part of the day and I am happy that way. I haven't been with any boys reacently, and I'm happier that way. I just need to take the time to find myself, and be happy alone. Even though I don't hold all of my heart, half of it... more then half of it, has been given away. Yes, Justin sill is there, and I miss him greatly and I'm not going to lie about it anymore.
He was a large part of my fall, and I still care about him a lot, but the fact that I still care about him does not mean that I'm going to put the rest of my social life aside. I will still look for other relationships. Ah yes, that whole Ethan thing, he asked me to talk to him the other night, and I just said, Ethan don't hurt me. I called Dave and told him that he had spoken with me... I don't know if Ethan knows about me going to Cali or not, but oh well too bad, I'm going anyways.
She sighs.
My fish are happy, just swimming around, I need to clean their tank. I'm being lazy though. hmm... well that was an update.
I'm excited college will be starting up soon, well not soon enough, but I'm almost to the payment of my car insurance. That will just take a load off of my shoulders.
She smiles.
Well, I'm off like panties in a whore house.
Ex boyfriends stiring up emtions, random boys dissrespecting her. Still wanting the one thing that she can't have.
I am toxic, I am an addictive drug.
My eyes carry blood;
My soul can't carry on anymore.
There is pain in me you can't experience;
I only wish that words could express the emptyness inside.
I want to be enfolded in his arms;
I want to forget everything,
And just be happy with your loves embrace.
I've been watching too many chick flicks. Oi I got my tickets for cali. I'm uberly excited. I've also been speaking wayy too much with Nicki. I have joined up in a part of the RPing of Harry Potter-ness. Which takes up part of the day and I am happy that way. I haven't been with any boys reacently, and I'm happier that way. I just need to take the time to find myself, and be happy alone. Even though I don't hold all of my heart, half of it... more then half of it, has been given away. Yes, Justin sill is there, and I miss him greatly and I'm not going to lie about it anymore.
He was a large part of my fall, and I still care about him a lot, but the fact that I still care about him does not mean that I'm going to put the rest of my social life aside. I will still look for other relationships. Ah yes, that whole Ethan thing, he asked me to talk to him the other night, and I just said, Ethan don't hurt me. I called Dave and told him that he had spoken with me... I don't know if Ethan knows about me going to Cali or not, but oh well too bad, I'm going anyways.
She sighs.
My fish are happy, just swimming around, I need to clean their tank. I'm being lazy though. hmm... well that was an update.
I'm excited college will be starting up soon, well not soon enough, but I'm almost to the payment of my car insurance. That will just take a load off of my shoulders.
She smiles.
Well, I'm off like panties in a whore house.