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wow- So I just read Tamaras entry, and she talked about relationships and how she has made errors in the past and she has realized that, but she has also realized that it should be baised on communication instead of on anything else.
So I looked back, and I saw, that my best relationships were the ones where I had talked to them for months before we even thought about dating. And we knew alot about eachother already. They knew that I like to control things about my own life, and they also knew that I will dress the way I want, and that I'll be friends with whom I want, and they also knew that They couldn't change who I was. If they didn't like something they could talk to me about it and we could find some middle ground, and be happy with that.
Now that kind of relationship makes me think of Justin, becuase he knew me so well. I really wanted to be in that relationship and that is why I tried so hard to make it work even though he was gone in the military. He knew that I would be completely faithful if he just talked to me. That is also the way it was with Ben. Which was one reason why it hurt so much after being the best of friends for years, and then he just left.
I realized that my relationship with Marc was a really good relationship, we talked, we hung out, but we also did all the things that a "Pomfret Couple" did. Sometimes I kinda wish that I could take everything back, But I can't do that now nor, can I change the past. I can just wish that they felt the same way.
I have found that I LOVE being respected, soooo much. Anyone that respects me, deffinantly will get a WHOLE lot farther, then anyone who doesn't.
Well anyways, now I'm going to stop giving the key to my heart away in this journal entry.
I just wanted to say Tamara, I know exactly where you are coming from, and I really wish that we could all get into the right relationships, where you don't change who you are when you hang out with a guy, and you aren't saying that you're with someone after two days. I will admit that I have commited this error. But I also will admit that I'm trying to stop it.
But yes, now that I'm done with that, I am addicted to a new song. *nod* Chingy- Balla Baby. HOLY POOP!, Really I Am!!! It's awesome.
So, okay it makes me think about one of the guys here on campus that I know. So things after that bust are better. I'm talking with the one person I thought was the most angry with me. We had a nice long talk about what security did to me and Sean, and how we were being bullied into talking. I can't handle being bullied, Really I can't. So I talked with him about that, and he totally understood, and I also said that if I could take it back I would, but then I also wish that I could have changed the whole night, and been one of the people that got out the window. Me being the person I am I COULDN'T let Sean take the fall on his own, he needed someone there, other wise the guys would be mad at him for anyone that they found. SO I'm still glad that I did what I did. I am also glad that the guys are understanding that I wish I hadn't done it.
Well, I need to post this entry before my computer stops working.
Love,
Maggie
So I looked back, and I saw, that my best relationships were the ones where I had talked to them for months before we even thought about dating. And we knew alot about eachother already. They knew that I like to control things about my own life, and they also knew that I will dress the way I want, and that I'll be friends with whom I want, and they also knew that They couldn't change who I was. If they didn't like something they could talk to me about it and we could find some middle ground, and be happy with that.
Now that kind of relationship makes me think of Justin, becuase he knew me so well. I really wanted to be in that relationship and that is why I tried so hard to make it work even though he was gone in the military. He knew that I would be completely faithful if he just talked to me. That is also the way it was with Ben. Which was one reason why it hurt so much after being the best of friends for years, and then he just left.
I realized that my relationship with Marc was a really good relationship, we talked, we hung out, but we also did all the things that a "Pomfret Couple" did. Sometimes I kinda wish that I could take everything back, But I can't do that now nor, can I change the past. I can just wish that they felt the same way.
I have found that I LOVE being respected, soooo much. Anyone that respects me, deffinantly will get a WHOLE lot farther, then anyone who doesn't.
Well anyways, now I'm going to stop giving the key to my heart away in this journal entry.
I just wanted to say Tamara, I know exactly where you are coming from, and I really wish that we could all get into the right relationships, where you don't change who you are when you hang out with a guy, and you aren't saying that you're with someone after two days. I will admit that I have commited this error. But I also will admit that I'm trying to stop it.
But yes, now that I'm done with that, I am addicted to a new song. *nod* Chingy- Balla Baby. HOLY POOP!, Really I Am!!! It's awesome.
So, okay it makes me think about one of the guys here on campus that I know. So things after that bust are better. I'm talking with the one person I thought was the most angry with me. We had a nice long talk about what security did to me and Sean, and how we were being bullied into talking. I can't handle being bullied, Really I can't. So I talked with him about that, and he totally understood, and I also said that if I could take it back I would, but then I also wish that I could have changed the whole night, and been one of the people that got out the window. Me being the person I am I COULDN'T let Sean take the fall on his own, he needed someone there, other wise the guys would be mad at him for anyone that they found. SO I'm still glad that I did what I did. I am also glad that the guys are understanding that I wish I hadn't done it.
Well, I need to post this entry before my computer stops working.
Love,
Maggie