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So i just had about the best 23 and a half minute conversation ever. I got a lot of things off my chest that have been sitting there for a LONG time. I also realized that im not alone (in the world and some of my thoughts). It was reather nice infact. I guess thats all i need sometimes, a nice 23 and a half minute phone conversation. I dont have to worry about having someone see me cry (which i hate and is half my battle when it comes to talking to people about stuff). I just hate it when people are so self-absorbed with their life that they cant see whats going on around them. They dont realize someone is upset until its too late and some things are unfixable. Forgiveness is not something to be taken lightly. You need to look around you and see whats going on. Most of us are in the same point in our lives, we're about ready to leave this shit whole (i mean Lovely lovely) place and we truely dont know whats to come. We are leaving our comfort zones. Some of us (i mean most of us) dont even realize it. We go about our lives as if next year we're still going to be here. We dont realize that our desistions we have made and our actions we do are going to effect that rest of our lives. We could reck a wonderful friendship, watching it crash and burn right in front of our eyes and we have no water to put it out. But there are the rest of us, who do realize that we are leaving and we have to be careful of our actions. What we do this summer, truely our last summer together, is what people, our "friends", will always remember us by. Do we really want to be remembered as the "friend" who never called or the one that was so self-absored that they didnt realize there was something wrong with their friend, their best friend, that was life altering (for the worst). Or what about the one who could tell them something to their face, but talked to other people about it? Or the one that lived in a shell and just disapeared?
I know some of you will write this off as a rant. Some of you will read this and say of I already know this and not change. Some will say "oh yeah thats true" and say they will change but don't. And the few, the VERY few, will realize it and WILL change. This was just a piece of wisdome I was given by my buddy buddy swim club buddy (I LOVE YOU SO MUCH). And I felt like sharing it. Hopefully you guys realize this and change, cause something needs to be done and my last memory of some of you guys is not the best, accually its pretty bad, some REALLY bad.
(And really this wasn't just a rant, I used proper puncuation and tried to spell things right.)
I know some of you will write this off as a rant. Some of you will read this and say of I already know this and not change. Some will say "oh yeah thats true" and say they will change but don't. And the few, the VERY few, will realize it and WILL change. This was just a piece of wisdome I was given by my buddy buddy swim club buddy (I LOVE YOU SO MUCH). And I felt like sharing it. Hopefully you guys realize this and change, cause something needs to be done and my last memory of some of you guys is not the best, accually its pretty bad, some REALLY bad.
(And really this wasn't just a rant, I used proper puncuation and tried to spell things right.)