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I find that my success as a student may be questionable, considering the fact that when it comes to many courses that i must take to gratuate i find that i just don't care enough to do the work.
Example. Tomorrow morning at 11am i am scheduled to have a mid-term in my Comic-Spirit class. I understand what is required for the midterm. The thing is, i haven't done a good job keeping up with the reading, and when it comes down to the last minute studying that i should be doing right now, i try. I tried, i really did, to get myself to sit down and focus and understand what Bergson thought about comedy and laughter, i tried to care what play of movie Philocomasium and Acroteleutium were from, i even tried to understand the different technical terms that are required to understand for the midterm. The thing is, i just don't care. Yup, back to that again. I don't care, and that's where the whole problem originates. I wish i cared, for if i did, i'd get the work done, and do well in school. The fact is, i'm already resigned to the fact that i'll probably get a very poor grade in this class, so i shrug it off and say "why bother struggling for it then?".
How is that the mindset of a good student???
I guess it comes down to the fact that i don't really want to be a student anymore. I just want to find a career path and move down it. I just want to start a family and support them.
I don't care about having loads of money and fame, i don't want it, i just want enough to get by. I don't need to study about Machiavelli and Plautus to do that!
I just feel bad, because everybody says i need to get a college degree, and my Dad is paying for me to get a college degree...
i don't want to let everybody down, and i don't want to waste my dad's money...
:(
Oh Yes
by Charles Bukowski:
There are worse things than
being alone
but it often takes decades
to realize this
and most often
when you do
it's too late
and there's nothing worse
than
too late.
Example. Tomorrow morning at 11am i am scheduled to have a mid-term in my Comic-Spirit class. I understand what is required for the midterm. The thing is, i haven't done a good job keeping up with the reading, and when it comes down to the last minute studying that i should be doing right now, i try. I tried, i really did, to get myself to sit down and focus and understand what Bergson thought about comedy and laughter, i tried to care what play of movie Philocomasium and Acroteleutium were from, i even tried to understand the different technical terms that are required to understand for the midterm. The thing is, i just don't care. Yup, back to that again. I don't care, and that's where the whole problem originates. I wish i cared, for if i did, i'd get the work done, and do well in school. The fact is, i'm already resigned to the fact that i'll probably get a very poor grade in this class, so i shrug it off and say "why bother struggling for it then?".
How is that the mindset of a good student???
I guess it comes down to the fact that i don't really want to be a student anymore. I just want to find a career path and move down it. I just want to start a family and support them.
I don't care about having loads of money and fame, i don't want it, i just want enough to get by. I don't need to study about Machiavelli and Plautus to do that!
I just feel bad, because everybody says i need to get a college degree, and my Dad is paying for me to get a college degree...
i don't want to let everybody down, and i don't want to waste my dad's money...
:(
Oh Yes
by Charles Bukowski:
There are worse things than
being alone
but it often takes decades
to realize this
and most often
when you do
it's too late
and there's nothing worse
than
too late.