Tough Decision
After a lot of thought and prayer I have made the major decision to take a step back from the Baha'i faith. Even though those in the community that I see are not outright offensive to me in any way, the contradictions that I am aware of in the way the Baha'i community is structured and run make it hard for me to be around Baha'is.
I have found so much in my Christian communities - at Church and at school and among my friends - and when I joined the Baha'i community I expected something similar. Maybe this was an unreasonable expectation, but it is just turned out to be a source of constant stress. Because of what happened to my Dad, because people who I used to know when I was a kid are only concerned with my Dad - 7 years later, because I can't have an intellectual theological discussion with anyone in that community.
This is such a hard this for me to do, I don't know what it means...more later.
I have found so much in my Christian communities - at Church and at school and among my friends - and when I joined the Baha'i community I expected something similar. Maybe this was an unreasonable expectation, but it is just turned out to be a source of constant stress. Because of what happened to my Dad, because people who I used to know when I was a kid are only concerned with my Dad - 7 years later, because I can't have an intellectual theological discussion with anyone in that community.
This is such a hard this for me to do, I don't know what it means...more later.