This is for those of you who don't get it...
Dear young scared daughter,
Please allow me to list a few observations:
1. The "dumb shit" you refer to is a picture of the contents of the trash can at the green house tour I went to last week.
2. I have no control over your assumptions or perspectives.
3. I appreciate your help in changing my focus on life and for the beauty you showed me how to find.
4. I have been able to take the tools you so generously provided me to help Marcia see the beauty in her own back yard. I appreciate your knowledge regarding diet.
5. Okay, I now see there are too many things I appreciate about you to list in an e-mail.
Now let me try to tell you some things I do not appreciate.
1. Seeking words of comfort from me when you are afraid. I clearly do not possess the right words so nothing I have to offer is comforting for you. I found this out the first day I met you :)
2. Assuming I want to hurt you. I have spent my entire life trying to shield you from hurt, and while I admit I was not effective, that does not change my intent.
3. Your verbal assaults. It hurts me to the core and I don't claim to have any idea what it does to your husband and children. Ask them.
You are the one who taught me if I change my perspective I will change the picture I am looking at. Look in your own box of tricks to find the answers to the things that cause you fear and pain. While I wish I posessed that for you; I clearly do not.
Let me know through Ron or the kids when you are ready to play nicely and I will make arrangements with you on where and when we can meet. I will not be reading any more of your emails because when you send this kind it really does feel and seem like I have stepped in the middle of a pile of shit, which is never a pleasant experience.
In the mean time I am trying to keep my own ship from sinking and trying to figure out ways to let people know I love them when I am no longer walking this planet. You stewed almost all day the last Sunday your family was here because you thought Ron and I were forming an alliance against you. The truth is I am forming an alliance for you. Along with those that love you and see your beauty I will form an alliance to protect you, and your young, as much as I can in my pathetic little way. If I find out the cost of that alliance is your dignity or Lillian's perception regarding herself then I think I may hate those people even more than you.
I love you my little hormonal daughter. Tell Elliott (if that is still his name) I love him too. I look forward to seeing all of you soon.
xxxooo,
mommy
aka "the observer"
Please allow me to list a few observations:
1. The "dumb shit" you refer to is a picture of the contents of the trash can at the green house tour I went to last week.
2. I have no control over your assumptions or perspectives.
3. I appreciate your help in changing my focus on life and for the beauty you showed me how to find.
4. I have been able to take the tools you so generously provided me to help Marcia see the beauty in her own back yard. I appreciate your knowledge regarding diet.
5. Okay, I now see there are too many things I appreciate about you to list in an e-mail.
Now let me try to tell you some things I do not appreciate.
1. Seeking words of comfort from me when you are afraid. I clearly do not possess the right words so nothing I have to offer is comforting for you. I found this out the first day I met you :)
2. Assuming I want to hurt you. I have spent my entire life trying to shield you from hurt, and while I admit I was not effective, that does not change my intent.
3. Your verbal assaults. It hurts me to the core and I don't claim to have any idea what it does to your husband and children. Ask them.
You are the one who taught me if I change my perspective I will change the picture I am looking at. Look in your own box of tricks to find the answers to the things that cause you fear and pain. While I wish I posessed that for you; I clearly do not.
Let me know through Ron or the kids when you are ready to play nicely and I will make arrangements with you on where and when we can meet. I will not be reading any more of your emails because when you send this kind it really does feel and seem like I have stepped in the middle of a pile of shit, which is never a pleasant experience.
In the mean time I am trying to keep my own ship from sinking and trying to figure out ways to let people know I love them when I am no longer walking this planet. You stewed almost all day the last Sunday your family was here because you thought Ron and I were forming an alliance against you. The truth is I am forming an alliance for you. Along with those that love you and see your beauty I will form an alliance to protect you, and your young, as much as I can in my pathetic little way. If I find out the cost of that alliance is your dignity or Lillian's perception regarding herself then I think I may hate those people even more than you.
I love you my little hormonal daughter. Tell Elliott (if that is still his name) I love him too. I look forward to seeing all of you soon.
xxxooo,
mommy
aka "the observer"