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So Im up 2 jobs but down 2 friends..Not a very fun trade off.
On wednesday night I was supposed to go drinking with Becky and Greg, which I was very excited about. Took a bus home from work with Stephen and he finally decided to talk to me about what was bothering him. I figured we would get to his place he would tell me what was bothering him and that would be that and I would then head over to Beckys. Didnt turn out quite like that. Stephen and I went into his room and started talking. I found out what it was and it hurt. We then ended up talking about a lot of other things and I had a rough night. Now Greg and Becky think that I didnt go over there because I was busy having sex with Stephen. Not quite. Yes he came out of his room in his shorts but that was only to get me some toilet paper so I could blow my nose...As for the sex hair...Not quite. That just came from laying my head down while I was crying. And turns out that they had tried to call me on my cell phone...And if either of you are reading this...I promise that this is true, My phone did NOT ring. Apparently it is not fixed since dad is still having trouble getting a hold of me as well. So I then looked at the clock and realized how late it had gotten and felt like a piece of shit cause I was supposed to be at Beckys 2 hours ago. I called her and went over but I was really upset so I didnt stay too long cause who wants to hang out with someone who is upset...Its usually not too much fun. They walked me home and tried to convince me to come back and drink with them..But I knew how I was at that point and I would have just pissed them off even more...Well that is what I thought anyway. Turns out I should have just gone back and drank with them anyway.
The next day I find out that Becky thinks I hate her..Not a chance. I didnt mean to give her the cold shoulder at all. Im sorry that she thought that. So I call her to talk to her and tell her that indeed I dont hate her. I was then supposed to go over and pick up the movie Alien from Gregs place. I was gonna stay and talk with them for a few. Stephen was supposed to come over to my place after work at 2, so I had some time to kill. He then calls me and tells me that he is getting off work early and coming over. I made the mistake of not calling Becky and Greg to let them know I wouldnt be over right away but instead later on. I apologized for that, that was my mistake. So later on Becky calls me to let me know that now she is mad at me and that she is out 2 friends.
Now I admit that I was wrong. Stephen hadnt been treating me very well this past week or so and Becky and Greg were there for me. That had been greatly appreciated. So when Stephen did come to me to talk to me there were some things that needed to get cleared up and I really wanted them to be cleared up. That is why I wanted him to come spend the night at my place with me. But now in doing so I have lost 2 really good friends aswell. Turns out I suck. And now I dont know what to do. I just wish this whole thing had never happened.
On wednesday night I was supposed to go drinking with Becky and Greg, which I was very excited about. Took a bus home from work with Stephen and he finally decided to talk to me about what was bothering him. I figured we would get to his place he would tell me what was bothering him and that would be that and I would then head over to Beckys. Didnt turn out quite like that. Stephen and I went into his room and started talking. I found out what it was and it hurt. We then ended up talking about a lot of other things and I had a rough night. Now Greg and Becky think that I didnt go over there because I was busy having sex with Stephen. Not quite. Yes he came out of his room in his shorts but that was only to get me some toilet paper so I could blow my nose...As for the sex hair...Not quite. That just came from laying my head down while I was crying. And turns out that they had tried to call me on my cell phone...And if either of you are reading this...I promise that this is true, My phone did NOT ring. Apparently it is not fixed since dad is still having trouble getting a hold of me as well. So I then looked at the clock and realized how late it had gotten and felt like a piece of shit cause I was supposed to be at Beckys 2 hours ago. I called her and went over but I was really upset so I didnt stay too long cause who wants to hang out with someone who is upset...Its usually not too much fun. They walked me home and tried to convince me to come back and drink with them..But I knew how I was at that point and I would have just pissed them off even more...Well that is what I thought anyway. Turns out I should have just gone back and drank with them anyway.
The next day I find out that Becky thinks I hate her..Not a chance. I didnt mean to give her the cold shoulder at all. Im sorry that she thought that. So I call her to talk to her and tell her that indeed I dont hate her. I was then supposed to go over and pick up the movie Alien from Gregs place. I was gonna stay and talk with them for a few. Stephen was supposed to come over to my place after work at 2, so I had some time to kill. He then calls me and tells me that he is getting off work early and coming over. I made the mistake of not calling Becky and Greg to let them know I wouldnt be over right away but instead later on. I apologized for that, that was my mistake. So later on Becky calls me to let me know that now she is mad at me and that she is out 2 friends.
Now I admit that I was wrong. Stephen hadnt been treating me very well this past week or so and Becky and Greg were there for me. That had been greatly appreciated. So when Stephen did come to me to talk to me there were some things that needed to get cleared up and I really wanted them to be cleared up. That is why I wanted him to come spend the night at my place with me. But now in doing so I have lost 2 really good friends aswell. Turns out I suck. And now I dont know what to do. I just wish this whole thing had never happened.