light in the dark
So- ACTF: fun- exhausting- I think it's sad but I feel already like I'm too old to party like that anymore- like my body can't take it. LOL ah well- had a good time.
So I get back and Caleb and I call into work to find out what time we're supposed to go in and I find out that I have to work tomorow night from like 8:30pm-2am...on a Monday...I have class at 9 on Tuesday. OK- my availability for the weekdays clearly stated until close on weeknights- I physically can't work until all hours of the morning and go to class- I just dont' have the energy. So- Caleb goes in and talks to our nice manager (the one who didn't schedule me for the late night shift) and she says well maybe I can just come until midnight but that they're really desperate and a lot of people are quitting. So I call in and say that's fine- but the more I thought about it the more I wasn't fine. I felt taken advantage of- I'm a college student- I don't get paid enough for them to fuck with my classes. So- I was really really upset- so THEN I find out I have to work on Thursday- which sucks because I was planning on auditioning for the show and if I got called back it'd be Thursday...so..that also made me really bummed. I don't plan on getting IN but I'd at least like an honest CHANCE at the show ya know? SO- I talk to Jeff who's always been the one keeping me from thinking a job is a live or die thing-- but he kinda reminded me that I haven't really been happy at this job- I know I just started but it wasn't really my thing. And the more I thought about it it was true- then I called my mom. She basically just said "quit- and if you need money your dad and I will help you out." I was really scared because I've had a job for so long and it was kinda like being fired from Journeys- like NOT having a job felt like NOT having a left arm. But having my mom's support and them letting me know that if I'm not happy- not getting paid great and don't NEED to pay for stuff at the moment I might as well just quit and find something more accomodating and open. So...I'm very nervous and scared but I'm going to put in my two weeks at AE. I'm going to make a real point to let my managers know how much it meant to me that they would hire me and that it's more a personal thing for me then to be ANGRY at the store. I realize they were in a crunch but I also have to think about myself. And..maybe it's God saying he's got other plans. So...wish me luck. Now the only other thing is finding someone to work for my on Thursday so it's not a problem for auditions- I'd hate to have to put that on my conflict sheet. SO..I'm going to try and see what happens. (holding breath) And- hey- if I don't get in the show- more time to really search for a better job right? OK! Phew! Got that out. (breathe Nikki..breathe) OK- I'm good- I've had three hours of sleep and I have class at 8am-- gatta jet!! Adios!
~Nikki~
So I get back and Caleb and I call into work to find out what time we're supposed to go in and I find out that I have to work tomorow night from like 8:30pm-2am...on a Monday...I have class at 9 on Tuesday. OK- my availability for the weekdays clearly stated until close on weeknights- I physically can't work until all hours of the morning and go to class- I just dont' have the energy. So- Caleb goes in and talks to our nice manager (the one who didn't schedule me for the late night shift) and she says well maybe I can just come until midnight but that they're really desperate and a lot of people are quitting. So I call in and say that's fine- but the more I thought about it the more I wasn't fine. I felt taken advantage of- I'm a college student- I don't get paid enough for them to fuck with my classes. So- I was really really upset- so THEN I find out I have to work on Thursday- which sucks because I was planning on auditioning for the show and if I got called back it'd be Thursday...so..that also made me really bummed. I don't plan on getting IN but I'd at least like an honest CHANCE at the show ya know? SO- I talk to Jeff who's always been the one keeping me from thinking a job is a live or die thing-- but he kinda reminded me that I haven't really been happy at this job- I know I just started but it wasn't really my thing. And the more I thought about it it was true- then I called my mom. She basically just said "quit- and if you need money your dad and I will help you out." I was really scared because I've had a job for so long and it was kinda like being fired from Journeys- like NOT having a job felt like NOT having a left arm. But having my mom's support and them letting me know that if I'm not happy- not getting paid great and don't NEED to pay for stuff at the moment I might as well just quit and find something more accomodating and open. So...I'm very nervous and scared but I'm going to put in my two weeks at AE. I'm going to make a real point to let my managers know how much it meant to me that they would hire me and that it's more a personal thing for me then to be ANGRY at the store. I realize they were in a crunch but I also have to think about myself. And..maybe it's God saying he's got other plans. So...wish me luck. Now the only other thing is finding someone to work for my on Thursday so it's not a problem for auditions- I'd hate to have to put that on my conflict sheet. SO..I'm going to try and see what happens. (holding breath) And- hey- if I don't get in the show- more time to really search for a better job right? OK! Phew! Got that out. (breathe Nikki..breathe) OK- I'm good- I've had three hours of sleep and I have class at 8am-- gatta jet!! Adios!
~Nikki~