Aug 14, 2004 01:25
well in 12 hours i'll be leaving for school. i hate having mixed emotions about it. i hate that i'm sad to go back, and excited at the same time. i hate not being able to name what i'm feeling.
it's been an interesting summer to say the least. nothing of what i expected. it definitely feels like it just started. i worked too much. i didn't see much of people. i didn't sleep nearly enough. i didnt' read enough.
wow this is turning out to be a little bit more bitter than expected. i thought i had a decent summer. i made so many awesome new friends. well not new friends, but better friends.
it wasn't hard to say goodbye to anyone this year. well ok maybe a few people. but i'm not leaving anyone behind this year. everyone's going to school. they're starting their own thing. and while i'll miss them, i know that they'll be having their own new experiences just like i got to last year.
on the otherside i'm really excited to say hello to eveyrone back at school. wow i'm so excited about my rooming situation because my roomie is AWESOME! it's just going to be a fun year. i'm excited about my team. my freshmen girls...we're not freshmen anymore are we... wierd. anyways- so yea... there's some things to look forward too i suppose.
ok i tried to be good about not playing. i know i'm going to be there monday and i'm going to be not happy. it's going to hurt so bad not being on the field. i can't help it. i'm going to try to be good. it's going to take a lot of strength and a lot of patience and A WHOLE LOT OF GOD. i'm not going to be able to do this alone...
so goodbye summer. goodbye rochester.