I'm Not Afraid to Fall..

[nikkisait]

maybe.

isn't it
breathtaking,
the breaking
of an
already-cracked
heart?
watch the
trainwreck,
salvage pieces
from the
rubble
of my heart.
keep them as
souvenirs,
tell the story to the girls
with
bitter, bitter
acrid hearts;
the glue you tried
to piece me back
together
with made me
sob all the
harder,
tell them this.
tell them of
my sick-up on your
trousers.
and when it
hits
too close
to home,
offer your condolences.
shakily laugh, pass
me off as a
lie
to impress them.
clutching to the
love you offer up,
they'll shake it
off.

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never stop trying.

and it looks like I'm
here again, rock at my
toes and hard heart
in it's place, thumping
behind my shoulderblades.
maybe, this time, I'll
learn to climb,
to find that space
where someone pushes me
away just as hard as I
push, and we hold eachother
up. seeing as I need
someone to have and to hold,
just let me cry,
give me love, let me
come-and-go, and then,
one day, I might not need to
leave. but, baby, if you can't do
that, just let me shove
until your knees are too
weak to push me back.
(my heart
can't hold
love
for two.)

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it's late to be up. too late.
love you, all my little chickies.

nikkisait
p.s.- if my music doesn't remind yyou of your nineties childhood, you are not human. :]