This paint by number’s life is fucking with my head
The walls of my room are bare even though Im not going anywhere..anytime soon..
It is easier to come home to a town it looks like I am in the process of leaving.
Im so trapped, and so useless here.
I am wasting my time, wasting talent, wasting opportunity...
Wasting risk.
I am pooled with the 'wasted spaces' of cwu.
Im bigger than what they let me be.
but.
I just spin my tires - because im not certified to be Passionate.
Further and further. This deadline being pushed away.
Weeks, then months - now finally years away from leaving.
It was just dangled infront of my face, and now gone
- i am sick over it.
It is easier to come home to a town it looks like I am in the process of leaving.
Im so trapped, and so useless here.
I am wasting my time, wasting talent, wasting opportunity...
Wasting risk.
I am pooled with the 'wasted spaces' of cwu.
Im bigger than what they let me be.
but.
I just spin my tires - because im not certified to be Passionate.
Further and further. This deadline being pushed away.
Weeks, then months - now finally years away from leaving.
It was just dangled infront of my face, and now gone
- i am sick over it.