"Taking a ride on my dirty swing of debauchery"
I dont like updating my journal with just more boring life, that not even i want to reread, and here I am about to do it. This is your chance to scroll to the next entry quickly...
This RA training has been going a little better every day. I remember getting here and seeing 45 faces that, to me, looked boring and made me miss my friends from home even more. Now, whether i wanted to or not, Im friends with a good amount of them. I see it as just something unavoidable, I dont want to be alone - i think everyones feeling a little bit of loneliness, and that's the force that is pulling us all into friendship with eachother. Sometimes Ill catch myself completely apart from the circle of people, completely enjoying myself and the quiet feeling of stepping back for a minute. I might think to myself, "Oh man, I have to join in or people are going to see me as this social recluse, quick, say something enthusiastic or happy sounding." Which sounds completely hillarious because if its one thing that I hate, its over zealous cheerleaders that never seem to come down of their enthusiastic high. I could be thinking this at Dinner, meals always have to be interupted with one 'group' yelling their meaningless hall cheers... Its just a joke.
...okay, its been real, more venting later. Im gonna hit up starbucks before the next hall meeting. C-ya!
This RA training has been going a little better every day. I remember getting here and seeing 45 faces that, to me, looked boring and made me miss my friends from home even more. Now, whether i wanted to or not, Im friends with a good amount of them. I see it as just something unavoidable, I dont want to be alone - i think everyones feeling a little bit of loneliness, and that's the force that is pulling us all into friendship with eachother. Sometimes Ill catch myself completely apart from the circle of people, completely enjoying myself and the quiet feeling of stepping back for a minute. I might think to myself, "Oh man, I have to join in or people are going to see me as this social recluse, quick, say something enthusiastic or happy sounding." Which sounds completely hillarious because if its one thing that I hate, its over zealous cheerleaders that never seem to come down of their enthusiastic high. I could be thinking this at Dinner, meals always have to be interupted with one 'group' yelling their meaningless hall cheers... Its just a joke.
...okay, its been real, more venting later. Im gonna hit up starbucks before the next hall meeting. C-ya!