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[nikkiremembered]

I threw out some great binge food yesterday so I wouldn't b/p today. Alas, I b/p today on some shitty ass food. I fucking wish I would just die.

I want to be fucking bones. Please leave me alone.

$5- cigs or food?

Comments

[summa1]

Hi I commented before in your journal under ssamantha120 but I wanted to leave you a note again. The program at UCLA saved my life. If you would like to ask me any questions about it(fears etc) Id be more than glad to talk.

[ana4athom]

cigs cigs cigs cigs!
and congrats on throwing away that food!!!!!
love ya,
dori

[nikkiremembered]

I better hurry up and buy those cigs before I spend it on food. lol
loves ya, rachel
Happy new year!

[nikkiremembered]

I remember you. I only went for my consultation; still anxiously waiting for an available bed. Does the hospital have all eating disorder patients or is it a mix of other patients with mental disorders? What should I expect on my first day? Groups, meals, one-on-one, phone calls? How long were you admitted and was it voluntarily? <3 thanks

[summa1]

The eating disorder wing:had only ed patients, with a few non ed young girls thrown in that just fit better with the ed group. Otherwise the hospital is huge and houses many other patients

[nikkiremembered]

Honestly, I know I can handle eating. It's just going to be hard when I have the urge to binge and purge. Do they have vegatarian or vegan diets? If not can you drink skim milk? Are the meals pretty healthy?

Thanks for reminding me about being honest about everything even non eating disorder stuff. On my first interview I left out another major disorder; I have Trichotillomania (OCD). When I read the diagnosis sheet I was marked as having bulimia nervosa. But I saw on box labeled Trichotillomania. I just was so nervous so I wasnt talking that much, even about my bulimia.

Yes! I'm actually happy to hear that we can have smoke breaks.

I apologize for all these questions, I hope you don't mind answering them for me. Thanks, <3