I just wanted to say keep up the good work. Don't worry about any minor setbacks-- speedbumps in the road to recovery is all they are. You give yourself power over your ED by acknowledging that you have it, that you want to get better, and that you can't expect yourself to do more than you are ready to-- but still stick strongly by your ultimate goal.
I'm trying hard to quit right now. I have two journals-- this one, and the one my school friends read. It's really like there are two of me...I'm trying to resolve this issue so that rather than two halves I have one whole.
Anyway, I wanted to let you know that I find your journal inspiring. I wish you the best of luck. If you ever need anything or if you ever want to talk, please let me know. I'm currently in a support group for EDs, and if I've learned anything, I've learned this: It is every bit as healing to have others depend on you, as it is for you to be able to depend on others.
Please take care of yourself, and I'm sending you lots of happy thoughts.
Hi! I'm glad that my journal can inspire you. I just let the words flow out onto the keyboard not realizing how much it can help people. I'm waiting for a call back from UCLA's pyschiatric unit so I can get help with my bulimia. They don't have an available bed yet and since it's the holidays, they are extremely busy. I know having bulimia is bad, but sometimes I try to justify it, "oh it's not that bad, I can stop anytime" but I know I can't do it on my own. I'm going to add you as a friend if you don't mind. Take care of yourself too, "if I've learned anything, I've learned this: It is every bit as healing to have others depend on you, as it is for you to be able to depend on others." This was a statment that was said at one of my mom's AA meetings. You have to depend on others and have others depend on you to get the support that you really need. <3 <3 <3 Rachel
Hopefully UCLA's psych unit will have a bed for you, soon. In the meantime, you are doing a wonderful job. I have problems with justifying what I do, too. But the fact that I need that reassurance so much, the fact that I need it to be "OK" lets me know that, no, things are not OK-- otherwise you wouldn't seek that reassurance so badly.
But, you know, fighting this doesn't seem so scary when you don't have to go through it alone. You really are doing such a great job. You've made the biggest step in admitting that you don't want to live this way anymore. And that is so admirable. You want to do it for you, and it's inspiring.
Ok, I'm going to hurry up and add you so I can finally have a friend on this journal, lol.
I found you through a community, too.
I just wanted to say keep up the good work. Don't worry about any minor setbacks-- speedbumps in the road to recovery is all they are. You give yourself power over your ED by acknowledging that you have it, that you want to get better, and that you can't expect yourself to do more than you are ready to-- but still stick strongly by your ultimate goal.
I'm trying hard to quit right now. I have two journals-- this one, and the one my school friends read. It's really like there are two of me...I'm trying to resolve this issue so that rather than two halves I have one whole.
Anyway, I wanted to let you know that I find your journal inspiring. I wish you the best of luck. If you ever need anything or if you ever want to talk, please let me know. I'm currently in a support group for EDs, and if I've learned anything, I've learned this: It is every bit as healing to have others depend on you, as it is for you to be able to depend on others.
Please take care of yourself, and I'm sending you lots of happy thoughts.
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"if I've learned anything, I've learned this: It is every bit as healing to have others depend on you, as it is for you to be able to depend on others."
This was a statment that was said at one of my mom's AA meetings. You have to depend on others and have others depend on you to get the support that you really need. <3 <3 <3 Rachel
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Hopefully UCLA's psych unit will have a bed for you, soon. In the meantime, you are doing a wonderful job. I have problems with justifying what I do, too. But the fact that I need that reassurance so much, the fact that I need it to be "OK" lets me know that, no, things are not OK-- otherwise you wouldn't seek that reassurance so badly.
But, you know, fighting this doesn't seem so scary when you don't have to go through it alone. You really are doing such a great job. You've made the biggest step in admitting that you don't want to live this way anymore. And that is so admirable. You want to do it for you, and it's inspiring.
Ok, I'm going to hurry up and add you so I can finally have a friend on this journal, lol.
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