Oh yeah!
Today is going to be an awesome day. Why? Because I said so and every thing I say is right. Look at me, Mrs. Narcissistic. No, seriously though, today is going to be such an awesome day because I'm not going to b/p. Last nigtht was funny as hell. I came to the conclusion that crying and complaining about my body size is not going to change it. Exercise and calorie control is crucial. I forced my fat butt to put on my running clothes and I zoomed out the door. Damn, I can't run for shit. I sprinted off and on for 15 minutes; I thought I was going to vomit. I actually thought about ducking behind a tree and purging away my dinner of lettuce topped with meat sauce and two bites of spaghetti. Naw, I haven't had red meat in a very long time. Plus, it was just a couple of bites. So after 15 minutes I decided to turn back home. Therefore it would add up to 30 minutes. Somehow I got lost in my own neighborhood. I ended up at the back gate to the base! From my house that's a long ways. Maybe a couple of miles, but still. Here I am walking around going crazy. It turned out for the better though. I spent 45 minutes walking around in circles until I found the path to my house. I was actually about to sit down and try to figure out where I was at. The base is so small, how the hell did I get lost? I ended up working my legs for a good hour. Yay for my stupidity! Later on that night I felt a binge craving coming on. I had to debate with my head several times. I'm so proud of myself for not binging or even eating. I just hate being the only one that's not doing anything about my weight. A lot of people in LJ communities, not to mention my LJ friends, have really given me great motivation. I would have never thought that it could be possible. My outlook for the future is going to be grand!
mldrfan for your post about being optimistic! It really helped.