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The window into my soul is tinted. So dark I can't see in or out. What do others see in me? Kind, funny, loyal, trusting, and loving. Maybe. I see failure, lazy, cynical, and numb. There is a way to make myself feel relevant. To matter in the world. Is there a way to appreciate the person I am or a way to accept the person I will never be? I don't know. The list of want and regret is to long still and I don't know how to put them in the past and focus on today. Because the now is so much better than the then.