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So here is a serious note. Fuck guys. You think you can trust what they say and you want to even though you know you shouldn't. I was right but I still trusted him knowing I shouldn't. Once I saw his ways I dumped him like an old pop can i'll never use again. I'm done. I thought he was perfect for me but obviously he wasn't.
I'm very proud of myself for being strong though this. For being able to say goodbye and not listen to his argument. His lies. Although this happened on the 4th, he has never tried to contact me again. Which in a way stings... but it's better this way. I don't need to be sucked back into has vacuum of lies.
NIN- Hurt is an amazing song and they're genius for writing it... but Johnny Cash singing it is just perfect. I've been listening to it a lot. Music always guides me and how I live my life. It always has. I'm scared to get old. I'm scared to have everyone I know go away in the end. The few people in my life that mean anything to me. The few True friends. They are my life.
But then again... in a few years time... they'll be gone and i'll have completely new friends. Thats just how life goes. Thats why I never cared about high school. Our friendships were all just going to wither away and die. It is such a rarity to have a friend from childhood. I can't say I have a true friend. Just Kim Franklin but I'm not close to her at all anymore...
wow I'm rambling but i'll be the only one to read this and its nice to know where my head is at when I go back and read these. I love LJ because i'll always have these memories... I hope it stays around so I can come back and read this when i'm like 40 haha. That would be crazy!!!
Well i'm outta here. Gotta work a double tmrw at HOOTERS! haha
I'm very proud of myself for being strong though this. For being able to say goodbye and not listen to his argument. His lies. Although this happened on the 4th, he has never tried to contact me again. Which in a way stings... but it's better this way. I don't need to be sucked back into has vacuum of lies.
NIN- Hurt is an amazing song and they're genius for writing it... but Johnny Cash singing it is just perfect. I've been listening to it a lot. Music always guides me and how I live my life. It always has. I'm scared to get old. I'm scared to have everyone I know go away in the end. The few people in my life that mean anything to me. The few True friends. They are my life.
But then again... in a few years time... they'll be gone and i'll have completely new friends. Thats just how life goes. Thats why I never cared about high school. Our friendships were all just going to wither away and die. It is such a rarity to have a friend from childhood. I can't say I have a true friend. Just Kim Franklin but I'm not close to her at all anymore...
wow I'm rambling but i'll be the only one to read this and its nice to know where my head is at when I go back and read these. I love LJ because i'll always have these memories... I hope it stays around so I can come back and read this when i'm like 40 haha. That would be crazy!!!
Well i'm outta here. Gotta work a double tmrw at HOOTERS! haha