Reconnect 2/?
"Even if he is a boy, we can still have fun"
"Be a good boy and enjoy it"
"Oh wow"
"Look at how dirty you are"
"You little slut. He's enjoying this"
"Thanks for the fun, catch you again sometime"
Taemin woke up with a start. He looked around him trying to find something familiar when he felt a shooting pain up his back. That's when it hit him. The voices, the hands everywhere. He wasn't Taemin anymore, Taemin was the cute innocent Maknae from SHINee. But now, now he was dirty, he was a slut. Pulling his clothes back over himself he realised, it was still night. He had run away from the agruements in the dorms. He leaned against the wall he needed to sort through his thoughts, he needed to know what to do next.
Taemin walked back to the dorm ignoring the pain shooting through his body. If he could go home, he could get clean and maybe that would help him. Taemin stopped infront of the door. His Hyungs. If they had seen him leave they'd be worried. He quickly unlocked the door and found the dorm empty whether this was a good sign or not Taemin had no idea. He crept to Minho and Jonghyun's room and opened the door. He breathed a small sign of relief, when he saw that his hyungs were in the beds. They didn't know and the didn't have to know. He could shower and throw away his clothes. Lastly, he could be SHINee's Taemin again. He went straight to the bathroom and torn his clothes off not acknowledging the blood or the white stains left on them.
Taemin turned off the shower, he still felt dirty, he couldn't shake the words replying in his head, words that they has said. Little slut......dirty......good boy ..... he looked at himself in the mirror and he could no longer see the Taemin that had performed Hello hours earlier, no he was different, he could still feel their hands, he could see the scratch marks on his chest, back and theighs. The boy looking back at him in the mirror wasn't Taemin, but yet he had no idea who it was? Or what he had become.....
He slipped into some clean clothes from the hamper in the bathroom, and took dirty his clothes into the bedroom, shoved them into a bag. Then he placed the bag under the bed and far back as he could push it and climbed into bed. He hoped sleep would take him quickly but he lay on his bed for what seemed like an eternitiy before his eyelids drooped and his was engolfed in the land of dreams.
It was part of the morning routine that Kibum woke up first, he would start breakfast and then wake up the rest of SHINee. Kibum thought that this was the best job, if the members didn't wake up he got to play jokes on them. He found it best to shoot them with a water gun if they weren't up fast enough. Kibum didn't think of himself as evil, he just enjoyed the reactions the other members had. It was a fun way for all but one member to wake up and set a good mood off for the day. Today was no different, Kibum woke up a 6am like always and started breakfast. He went back into the room he shared with Jinki and Taemin, Jinki was usually the hardest to wake so Kibum gave him the most time to wake up but waking him first. But today was different, when he walked into the room his gaze fell on Taemin. The boy always slept, like Jong discribed as dead, he would wake up in the postion it fell to sleep in. But now the boy was curled in a ball muttering something crumpling his bedsheets in his hands as they curled into fists. Kibum walked up to Taemin's bed and looked at him. He stood frozen at what he saw and heard. Taemin's face was a mixture of fear and pain the likes of which Kibum have never seen Taemin havebefore, and the words that he was muttering were getting louder. Kibum could hear them clearly, No please...please stop....please don't touch me. By the third time Kibum heard the phase Taemin was practically shouting while his body quivered.
Kibum had no idea how but his body moved on it own, he placed his hand on Taemin's shoulder and shook him hard. Taemin's eyes snapped open as he pushed Kibum with full force sending kibum flying off the side of the bed. "When was the dancer so god damn strong" thought Kibum as he stood up beside the bed where he had landed. "Taemin what's wrong" Kibum asked the worry plain accross his face. Taemin lifted up his head "No." he thought "They can't know, the only way that i will stay Taemin is if they never know" So Taemin did what he could, he lifted his head up and played the part of the Taemin from yesterday, he was cheerful when he woke up right?
Kibum face softened when he saw the younger one grin "I'm sorry hyung, i think was having a nightmare...Are you ok?" Kibum was going to give the boy some stick for pushing him off the bed but when Taemin began to pout ever so slightly, Kibum gave up. Taemin's pout was on of the few weak spots he possessed. "I'm fine" he replied ruffling the Maknae's hair missing the boy flinch as he moved away to wake up their leader. Kibum walked out the room, Jinki turned over and went back to sleep. Taemin used this oppurtunity to get up. Only when i tried to move he felt the same pain he had the night before. He pulled his body off the bed and steadied himself againist it. As he went to walk away he saw blood on the bottom sheet. He hastily pulled the bottom sheet of the bed grabbed some clothes for the day and shuffled into the bathroom.
"It's it all sorted" thought Taemin. He hadn't looked in the mirror, he was scared of what he might see but the rest was sorted. He spilt mouthwash on the bedding to claim that was the reason he changed it, and as painful as it had been to shower he had mangaged to wash most of the blood away from his body. Before unlocking the door he breathed ready to get into character.
Breakfast pased by without hassle, since the members didn't have the time to eat it. Taemin had no appetite, he didn't deserve food and....and...no he didn't want to think about it. The first part of their schedule was a morning dance rehearsal, their manager thought that since they hadn't performed dances due to Jonghyun ankle injury they required an extra session to clean up the dances with and without Jonghyun for their upcoming schedule.
Jonghyun sat a chair in the corner of the rehearsal space wishing so much that he wasn't injured so that he could dance. Watching the others made him realise just how much he missed performing their songs complete with the dance. He could feel a pang of regret in his chest as he watched his band mates dance. It must have been half way through the rehearsal when he realised that something was wrong with Taemin, Jonghyun has always admired the way their Maknae danced looking so graceful and yet it looked so effortless. But today it looked like he wasn't performing, his dancing looked awkward. Jinki started the track for RingDingDong, the boys started and it was all going fine till just before the second chorus JongHyun saw Taemin's face go frightenly pale, the boy then gripped his stomach and fell to the floor. Jonghyun, who started towards Taemin when he went pale, was the first to reach the younger one. He rolled Taemin onto his back violently shaking his shoulder. Kibum gasped and gripped onto Jonghyun's arm tightly when the boy didn't stir. Minho had run to his bag and was calling an ambulence, Minho knew something was wrong as soon as the dancer fell. Jinki had stayed in his position from the routine and stared at the pale Maknae on the floor. He moved towards Taemin when the sound of sirens came closer.
Note: So that is chapter two and i know i haven't got any pairings in yet but they will develop soon k ;D
I do not own SHINee but i do hope that you found that this has been worth the read
I will probabily update tomorrow during college, my history homework isn't as important as this!!
Thank you for reading and can you please comment and give me some feedback (even if it's negitive)
i want get better at this!!